Just a story trying to be heard

[Admon]

I've been on here a few times and every time it just makes me feel stupid for being upset. Everyone has a story. Some are worse than others and some are happy ones. Mine isnt nearly as bad as so many others but i just feel the need to let it out and talk to whoever wants to listen...Growing up, i had my struggles like everyone else. Mine were different from the people around me. My best friend died in a weird accident when i was very young. My mom almost got taken away from me and now she is still here, but not in the best of health (I know i should be happy shes here, but its still hard) ive been fully paralyzed in yet another strange accident and some other things that really dont need to be said to get the point across. Anyway, now here I am. Things are finally starting to come down on my shoulders and i am feeling the weight of all my emotions. People dont quite understand me (i dont even understand me haha) Ive found a girl that i love so much, with all my heart and soul. But she doesnt feel the same way and she says she cant yet. Everyone says to get over her. But i cant. She is my best friend and i need her by me. Its just that with her there i find myself falling in love all over again. It feels as though my friends are starting to shy away from me. Not quite sure why. Maybe they arent and its just me idk..ANYWAY Im just reallly looking for some love in my life. i know my family loves me (even if it doesnt always seem like it) but i just need to feel love from someone that i dont share the same blood with. I feel so alone and i dont know what to do at all...ive thought about killing myself, like so many others with a "story" but i dont know if i would actually be able to do it. I need a path that i can start on or something. otherwise im just out in the middle of the desert with no heading or anything. I'm sure that this whole thing is confusing for whoever is trying to read it. This is my head haha. I just needed to get it out and let someone know. Thanks for reading my story, even if it isnt as intriguing as some of the others

[SoraKat]

OKAY. i have something VERY important: YOUR STORY IS NO LESS IMPORTANT THAN ANYONE ELSES. i used to think that too, but now looking back... i see that I DID have problems that needed help, and SO DO YOU.

so now that thats in order...

you are sad i see, and you feel alone. But i just want you to know that even though you might feel that way, you arent. There is always someone watching out for you. I know you might not have religious beliefs, but i do, and so i think you will survive and You are NOT alone.

but i understand human companionship. Its tough when you love someone but they arent able to commit to you, but overall, my main advice with that in particular is YOU WILL GET THROUGH IT. because either you will move on or better circumstances will come into play. It takes time.

Understanding is another thing thats extremely difficult to come across. Its one of those things that just... well its hard to understand anyone, let alone make any sense of the emotions in your mind. They overtake you. id say look at each feeling, and take it separately, dont let it bog you down.


i hope i could help, and thank you for sharing your story.

<3 Sora