You are my 47 stiches

[broken_butterfly]

You used me...but I love you anyways. I was so stupid to believe you...but you're every shade of perfect. The night you dumped me flat on my face I cried for 3 hours. I wear a fake diamand on my left hand pretending it's yours. Before you even saw me as anything more than just "your friends littel sister" I was already telling all my friends about you, daydreaming about you, doodeling on my notebooks about you, and hopeing that you'd notice me. I am a liar. I still continue to tell my friends that we're together forever and always. But that was an empty promise. You made it seem so perfect with the pounding of your heart and the warmth of your arms. I knew it would come to an end but I just wasn't ready. I am bisexual. I now have a girlfriend. Her name is Bree. But I have taken a wrong turn for the worse. I want love. Your love. I pretend that it's ok, what you did. Because I blame myself. Because I know that if I wasn't so naive and stupid you wouldn't have had the chance to make that mistake and neither would I. I cry every single day. Somtimes I don't even see it comeing. I hear your name and run away. I can't listen to certain songs or i'll think of you and cry. I hate myself. But I love you. I busted my mirror with my fist because of all my anger towards this whole thing. I've returned to some old habbits. I still smell you on my sheets. You're under my skin and I can't shake this feeling. I think I might have been pregnant with your child. But I overdosed before I took the test. I need help. Because of you. Because of me. Because of us. I love you Jonas.

[Pensive14]

That is a really heartfelt poem. I'm glad you posted it, but sorry for what you're going through.
If you want advice, I don't think you should just move on. You should first let yourself be able to move on. Really admit to yourself it's over between the two of you, and just let go.
Hope this helps.
-Pensive

[California]

If someone is not treating you with love and respect, it is a gift if they walk away from you. If that person doesn't walk away, you will surely endure many years of suffering with him or her. Walking away may hurt for a while, but your heart will eventually heal. Then you can choose what you really want. You will find that you don't need to trust others as much as you need to trust yourself to make the right choices. If you live in a past dream, you don't enjoy what is happening right now because you will always wish it to be different than it is. There is no time to miss anyone or anything because you are alive. Not enjoying what is happening right now is living in the past and being only half alive. This leads to self pity, suffering and tears. These are wise words of Miguel Ruiz and ones I live by they have gotten me through some tough things.

[Concrete Angel]

I agree with Joseph. If he hurt you, he clearly doesn't deserve you and the wonderful person that you are. Give time the opportunity to help you heal. Accept that things have gone wrong, but know that life is about making mistakes and learning from them.
Things don't always go our way, but there's a reason for that. It's because there's something better and more perfect for who we are, waiting for us to turn the corner. I know you've fallen, and yes, of course it will hurt, but you shouldn't let that hurt stop you from getting up, dusting yourself off, and continue walking with a smile on your face. You just need to be willing to see the brighter side, and although it may not seem as visible as all the pain, don't let it stop you from hoping that things will get better, because they will.

Take care.