Triggering: What should I do?

[Sunlight.]

I just can't take it anymore. I really can't. I need help so badly. I don't want to live anymore. I really don't. I feel like I have nothing to live for anymore. My OCD and Depression is getting worse and I just want it to go away, to be normal. But I'm not. I'm going to have to live with this for the rest of my life. The black clouds that are hanging over me will remain over me for a long time despite what I do. I try to distract myself with the things I love, I talk to people, I take anti-depressants, I go out with friends but none of it is working.

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things will get better. is there any particular topic that gets you nervous about how things are? please explain it to us better... we all want to help you. Try harder to distract yourself as that might work. =)

[Liz94]

Hello

I am sorry to hear that you are feeling like this, I really am.

I noticed that you said you take anti-depressants, but it is clear from you post that you are still feeling really down. Therefore maybe going to the doctors and explaining how they are not helping would be a good idea. They could change your prescription.

As I am sure you know. "healing" from depression is a case of trail and error and a long hard battle. So please don't give up. Things can and will get better. Kepp distracting yourself with things you love. Go out and join a club, start something new. Plan a big party with all your friends so that you have something really special to look forward to.

I hope this helped.

Godd luck and keep fighting

[artgurl]

Hi Moonlight,
I'm so sorry you're going through this, it's a horrible burden to bear. But it can be beaten, take it from me. I was a self-harmer in middle and high school and seriously contemplated suicide from time to time. As you get older life seems to come in different perspectives. What you need is constant distraction, and by that i don't mean going out with your friends all the time and trying to force yourself to act a way you don't feel.. What i mean is that you need changes of scenery, new experiences. You need time to focus on yourself and figure out where these triggers of depression are coming from. Have you talked to a counselor? I stronglyyyy suggest it. It saved my life. Literally.
Suicide will solve nothing, honestly it will cause more hurt and pain then good. No parent should ever loose a child, especially to something that was self-inflicted. It's a cowards way out. Years after you've gotten through the lowest times of your life, you'll look back and say "wow i beat that" and it will make you feel so strong and so empowered.
You can beat this, but you have to take the first step in doing it. In order to make those dark clouds go away you have to make them, they won't clear up on their own.
Keep you head up, and if anything gets worse/happens/triggers a low please please please don't feel alone, feel free to inbox me at any time. We're all here to help you.
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