How I am feeling.

[.Heartfelt.Guardian.]

How I have been feeling.


There are a few people that think I should talk to an adult. About how I have been feeling, this is the first time that I have really explained or tried to explain everything going on

Now, I do not recall when all of this started, but I do know that it was before middle school, I have a few different signs of depression, these are it.

Sadness or hopelessness
Irritability, anger, or hostility
Tearfulness or frequent crying
Withdrawal from friends and family
Loss of interest in activities
Changes in eating and sleeping habits
Restlessness
Feelings of worthlessness and guilt
Lack of enthusiasm and motivation
Fatigue or lack of energy
Difficulty concentrating

Now that I know this, I am not sure what to really say about all of it, I’m hurting, and I think I could possibly have depression. Knowing this I do not know what else I can do, I’m scared to talk to my mom, because I think she will think its just going to be okay, but recently, I have looked up things, and started to read up on them, and It says

Depression is a serious problem that impacts every aspect of a teen’s life. Left untreated, teen depression can lead to problems at home and school, drug abuse, self-loathing—even irreversible tragedy such as homicidal violence or suicide.

I don’t know what to do, I’m hurting, I’m upset all the time, and I know I am not myself…. Some things I noticed the past few weeks that are becoming more frequent

My additude towards my parents
I’ve been freaking out at my friends
I got mad at a teacher
I have the feeling that hurting myself makes it go away, and I know it does
I have no been sleeping or eating as normal as I usually do
I have lost a few of my friends because of getting really mad and upset for no reason
I have no been myself
Having panic attacks of things that are not there, and that won’t happen,


So much has happen over the years, between my great grandmother dying, to being bullied in school till the present year, also to being hurt by people, and also to learn to know who my biological father, and how mean he is, and was back before I was born, This had hurt me a lot also I was in this very bad emotional abusive relationship for three years on and off, how it hurt so much, and I didn’t tell anyone about it. And still have not. Till now.

In the past few years, my sadness has gotten worse. Since I moved home in grade 3 I have been shy, and very very self cautious, And scared and afraid of a lot of stuff that I was not before.

I don’t know what to do, I am scared to say anything to anyone. Of the thought that they will just tell me it is okay and that it will go away, It won’t or it would of years ago.

I do not know what is causing these feelings, or why I am just noticing all of it now, but I hurts so much.

No one understands how important this is to me, how much I really am confused and want to know whats going on, I have so many feelings, that I just don’t understand.

[Kira-Kira]

Love bug try talking to your mon the worst she can do is say it will be ok. I live you and you can always come to me don't forget that love bug

[.Heartfelt.Guardian.]

Originally Posted by Kira-Kira

Love bug try talking to your mon the worst she can do is say it will be ok. I live you and you can always come to me don't forget that love bug

Coco I can't do that, My nervs get worked up and I freak out, Preventing me from saying anything to do with it at all

[Le bonheur*]

I really think you need to talk to your mom, sweets. She may surprise you and help you more than you think. You deserve to be helped, you deserve to be heard, and most of all; you deserve to be happy. You're an amazing girl and I wish I talked to you more... Just know that I'm always here whenever you need someone to talk to. Okay? Take care of yourself. <3

[.Heartfelt.Guardian.]

Originally Posted by believe.in.hope

I really think you need to talk to your mom, sweets. She may surprise you and help you more than you think. You deserve to be helped, you deserve to be heard, and most of all; you deserve to be happy. You're an amazing girl and I wish I talked to you more... Just know that I'm always here whenever you need someone to talk to. Okay? Take care of yourself. <3

I can not talk to my mom, thank you for being here for me.