Triggering: I have no clue what to do anymore.

[XxFateFellShortxX]

Okay... Ummm I haven't done this before so i'm just gonna start...

Well i'm clinically depressed and have been since 7th grade... although the root of my problems goes back further than that.

Right now i have no clue how to deal with everything goin on in my life. My dog just died, i have people at school bullying me, and my family is falling apart in front of me and i think its my fault.

At school, girls are coming up to me and telling me that i'm a whore and a slut because i kissed this one guy who i thought liked me. But he listened to his ex gf who set him up with my best friend because she thought that him dating me would reflect badly on her and make it seem like he has low standards. now she comes up to me every day saying how i should just kill myself and do the world a favor.

I thought i'd get a reprieve from this at home but i don't. ever since last year when i got out of the hospital from trying to commit suicide, my parents have been fighting a lot because they think they went wrong raising me. They focus all of their attention on my sister because she's the "normal" one. My mom and i haven't spoke since april and my dad wont even look me in the eyes anymore. With all the fighting i feel like i'm a burden to them and i'm starting to fall back into the depression i've worked so hard to get out of. i started cutting again and got into more drugs.

I need help but i don't have anyone i can talk to without thinking that i'm just going to be a burden to them or feel like an idiot because i can't deal with my problems. i feel like a whiny person who needs to step up and deal. but i don't know how to.

[David14]

Hi

Sorry to hear this is happening.

Bullying is never all right people should never have to go thought been bullied waht so every
if you are been bullied and would like some help or advice please talk to some one on hear or go to www.cybermentors.org.uk and we have some very helpful cybermentors and counsellors online from 8am till 2am every day all year round.

take care all
From
David14