boredom, depressed and wishing for home

[Dedalus]

I've moved from Dublin to Edinburgh to go onto postgrad studies. I've been here since the very start of September and I don't really like it. The university is great and the facilities far better than my one in Dublin...but I just haven't got much of a social life. Certainly not anything like the one I had in Dublin.

I hadn't really noticed it too much until yesterday. I finished all of the work I have to do for the semester last Friday - exams, essays, etc., ...and now without work to do I feel bored.

I've one good friend, Steph, who is Irish. But she works part-time and is very busy. The rest of the people I don't really like too much. The majority are American and while I hang out with them sometimes I feel bored and if there is this massive divide between us...it really isn't that much fun for me - and its not because of them, they're nice people.

There's a few English PhD students I know...but again there's a divide. They're a bit older than me and they've got excessively greater amounts of money in their pockets from their scholarships.

So without work to do and to concentrate on I am feeling hopelessly bored and quite lonely and missing Dublin incredibly. I don't regret the decision to move here for studies, its definitely given me far better chances for getting a scholarship for a PhD, and this depressing feeling will be worth it in the long run...

...but my God I wish I had a group of friends I liked. I mean I have no-one who I can drop by to now and have a cup of tea with. Steph I'm seeing tomorrow, but now she is sleeping after a 12 hour shift at work today.

And one of the big depressing things is that there's no girls to be interested in. I'm not attracted to any on the course, and there's only one who's been showing up the last few weeks in the school's postgrad room - and I only like her because she's pretty. and I haven't had the least opportunity to talk to her. The whole thing feels stifling. I used to meet girls all the time when I was in Dublin...

My flatmate is Mexican and all her friends are Mexican and they all speak Spanish which leaves me out. And she's 25 and she's not much fun to me...so thats another social route I don't find myself enjoying.

I think a large part of why its hit me now though, is that during term time there's a lot of people studying in our postgrad room (specifically for history, classics and archaeology MA students - that pretty girl is in History I think, I'm in Classics) and I'd be able to chat away to the people I know every now and then and at least socialise a little. Now there is no-one and its all very, very boring.

[koran1]

mate you sound bored. why dont you go home for a few days? see old friends and family. if not be creative do something proactive, something to keep oyur mind busy and youll enjoy

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