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suffering in slience - December 22nd 2011, 06:32 AM

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today would have been russell's birthday....
i cant do this anymore..
i cant do this without him
might as well kill myself and join him
i dont think anyone would notice anyways....
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Re: suffering in slience - December 22nd 2011, 09:31 AM

I'll notice if you're not online for a long time d: And I'll miss you loads and go mad sending you messages till you reply. You are very strong Drew. I know you'll make it.
I want to dedicate a song to you-
"Keep Holding On"

You're not alone
Together we stand
I'll be by your side, you know I'll take your hand
When it gets cold
And it feels like the end
There's no place to go
You know I won't give in
No I won't give in

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

So far away
I wish you were here
Before it's too late, this could all disappear
Before the doors close
And it comes to an end
With you by my side I will fight and defend
I'll fight and defend
Yeah, yeah

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

Hear me when I say, when I say I believe
Nothing's gonna change, nothing's gonna change destiny
Whatever's meant to be will work out perfectly
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

Keep holding on
Keep holding on

There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through



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Re: suffering in slience - December 24th 2011, 03:05 AM

drew sweetie, you are strong. Russell doesn't want you there yet (not because he doesn't love you) but because he knows that you are strong and that you have a lot to live for


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Re: suffering in slience - December 24th 2011, 11:24 PM

Drew I would notice and I care about you. Please talk with me
   
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Re: suffering in slience - December 25th 2011, 04:12 AM

everyday without him is another day that i die inside
im soooo done
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Re: suffering in slience - December 25th 2011, 05:37 AM

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everyday without him is another day that i die inside
im soooo done
sweetheart, I know this feeling all to well. But, I promise you things can get better. And look at how far you've made it so far, you're so strong for that. I just know you can keep fighting, and that things will get better for you and you'll be so much happier <3 keep your chin up, and message me sometime if you want to talk.


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Re: suffering in slience - December 25th 2011, 06:08 AM

I've attempted suicide before...Not many know... Not many cared... I wonder what it'd be like if I was gone for good this time... No more trying, no more crying... I simply wonder...
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Re: suffering in slience - December 25th 2011, 10:02 AM

I lost my best friend 3 years ago. I kow how much it hurts, it feels like they tore a huge part of your sole away and took it with them when they passed away. The sick, hollow feelling inside. I know the allure, the temptation of joining them. But could you really pass this same hurt onto the people who care about you? In that split moment, could you really willingly pass this torment onto the people close to you?


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Re: suffering in slience - December 28th 2011, 06:47 AM

i seriously doubt i would be missed
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Re: suffering in slience - December 28th 2011, 03:04 PM

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i seriously doubt i would be missed
Are you forgetting me Drew?



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Re: suffering in slience - December 29th 2011, 05:54 AM

no im not....
i just dont feel that i deserve to be loved
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Re: suffering in slience - December 29th 2011, 06:10 AM

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no im not....
i just dont feel that i deserve to be loved
You do deserve to be loved Drew. So many people here love you. Theres a reason for that. It may be hard to see, but there is.


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Re: suffering in slience - December 29th 2011, 08:08 AM

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Re: suffering in slience - December 29th 2011, 05:16 PM

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no im not....
i just dont feel that i deserve to be loved

*kisses you gently* silly billy, you do deserve to be loved. you are loved by me and that will never ever ever change. i will always love you. through thick and thin. you will get through this. i know you will. you just have to


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Re: suffering in slience - December 29th 2011, 09:37 PM

Drew,
I love you. I love you so much. I should probably tell you this more often. But it's true. Please, I couldn't live with myself if I let you go. So you're not going anywhere. I won't let you. You will stay right here with me and everyone else. Because we love you. We love you so much. I know you don't believe me when I say it but it's true. Everything I have ever said to you was true. You are always in my thoughts, so I refuse to let you go. I refuse to let you leave me. Because I need you.

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Re: suffering in slience - January 9th 2012, 05:02 AM

i love you too erin
but i feel like everyone here is better off without me

i honestly dont think im going to last much longer
the walls are closing in
i may not make it through the night
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Re: suffering in slience - January 10th 2012, 01:30 PM

You WILL make it Drew. I know you are strong enough to make it.
Tell me one thing, how will we be better off without you? We need nice people like you around us to remind us that the world is not such a bad place after all. STay strong <3 For us. For you.



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Re: suffering in slience - January 11th 2012, 02:44 AM

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but i feel like everyone here is better off without me

i honestly dont think im going to last much longer
the walls are closing in
i may not make it through the night
*takes your hand and leads you to where it is more spacious* baby, we have all the time in the world. hold on and you will get through this. one step at a time.


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Re: suffering in slience - January 12th 2012, 04:30 AM

i feel so utterly alone and invisible

Pisces:i dont think im anything speical..i dont feel like i help anyone here anyways....i dont think i can stay strong for myself...

mabye for other people...but not for myself
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Re: suffering in slience - January 12th 2012, 04:31 AM

i feel so utterly alone and invisible

Pisces:i dont think im anything speical..i dont feel like i help anyone here anyways....i dont think i can stay strong for myself...

mabye for other people...but not for myself

i wish i was never born..fml
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Re: suffering in slience - January 12th 2012, 08:20 AM

Then stay strong for me?



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Re: suffering in slience - January 13th 2012, 04:31 AM

i dont think i can anymore
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Re: suffering in slience - January 14th 2012, 04:23 AM

You can Drew, I know you can. Don't think about tomorrow, don't think about the past, only think about the present. Always live in the present. It helps. Everyone loves you. <3 Stay strong.





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Re: suffering in slience - January 16th 2012, 04:26 AM

thank you for that kind reply unfortunate

but you shouldnt worry about me
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Re: suffering in slience - January 16th 2012, 01:46 PM

Your welcome. Its true.
And i do.





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