Holiday blues?

[Max_99]

Eh, well, I shouldn't be typing this :P I'm not a horrible case like some of the others, I just wanna rant I guess.

I seem to really have the holiday blues, I couldn't smile at all during the family who I love so much, I didn't smile at the presents or admire the lights. Now we're with my mom's husband's family who I feel like hates me and would rather me die and sitting alone in the hotel room in solitary confinement...been like this for like, 12 hours straight? Just sitting alone and listening to music. I smoked in the hotel room and got in trouble, feel like a stupid cunt.

I dunno, just depressed by the holidays. I was excited to see my boyfriend again after a week when he got back from out-of-state, but the day he gets back, I leave for 2 days to go to Minnesota. Blah. I just feel blah.

*hugs*


Happy Whatever, guys.

[Katrina]

What's up? Good to see you, for real, though. You're allowed to rant, homegirl.

Its tough when holidays don't meet our expectations, and I think a lot of folks around these parts have been kind of having to deal with that recently/today. And that's an unfortunate thing. Is that what you think it is, maybe? Things supposed to be going perfectly falling a bit short of that? Sometimes I think trying to figure out the reason behind the blues and combating that works better than trying to combat the blues themselves.

I hope you and your boyfriend have a wonderful time you ARE able to spend together, either before or after you go to Minnesota. Don't sell your time short, with him, by spending too much worry on the fact that you'll be leaving soon. Refocus that energy on having a great time with him - I know he's excited to see you!

Happy whatever to you too.

[Max_99]

Thanks Katrina, I think that's about right. Plus I feel like an outcast as usual :P Starting to find myself addicted to cigarettes and tobacco, I've been cutting more lately. Worried about everything :P

Oh well, trying to stay positive. Thanks again. <3