feeling kinda awful :/

[Whitesparrows_blackarrows]

Im not sure what to do with my life anymore. Im doing shit in school ( at least for me) im getting mostly A-'s and because I cant take a danm test properly they dont go much higher than that, it sucks because i understand the content im taught.
not to mention im at a 70% in math, a B- holy crap what is wrong with me? i try so hard, i have a tutor i go in for extra help everyday at school and i cant do anything right.
im scared for my futur, im want to go into biology and then after first year uni into medicine, but i dont know if i could do that
what if i never get to do anything?
i dont want my life to be avg.

my relationship with my father is, pretty awful not going to lie. up until about a couple months ago he used to hurt me physically and verbally and emotionally. its just mostly verbal now. but its not like i can forget it, and i honestly hate him for it

Im just tired with life, I dont have any real friends, all i do is study, my parents are never happy with me i just wanted someone to be proud of me honest. I have constant panic attacks, I can never sleep.im just so tired of things and honestly i just really wish i were dead. I have flashbacks from all sorts of things including this stupid shit that happend with a soccer coach and i cant get it out of my head it wont freakin stop

there's just too much and i want out more than anything.

[Christian_girl_4ever]

Please don't give up. I know how hard panic attacks and flashbacks can be. And sh*t in life may feel unbearable right now, but you're still so young, you can make it through this. PM me if you'd like to talk privately....I won't judge you and I care about you already.