I just need help, really bad and really fast.

[LillyD23]

I just don't know what to do. I cant tell you my whole life story because that would take me hours, and im sure nobody wants to read a book.. lol. so i'll start from recent.
I left home 2 months ago because i couldnt handle the abuse anymore, the physical abuse was over yes, but the emotional, and verbal abuse were still there. Nobody in this house understands me, nobody here understands what its like to have depression, and be sad everyday and cry all the time. So they think im fucking psychotic. Its not cool, because as much as i try to help them understand it, they dont. They laugh in my face and it hurts. I cant get into it all, but i moved back in 2 weeks ago because my cousin and her mom couldnt afford it, so it was either back home, or a park bench.. but not that park bench is looking pretty nice. I knew if i came back things would be the same, and i knew it would be the worst decision i ever made. The whole reason why i left was because they were going to make me kill myself, they were pushing me to far, and that mixed with someone who already has depression, doesnt end well. So now, im back to feeling suicidal and its REALLY scaring me now. And i just need someone, anyone, to give me advice, but im sick and tired of hearing the same things over and over again, and i deff dont wanna go see ANOTHER councilor, because i;ve seen 12 already... i feel hopeless.

[Addycat]

If the physical abuse is really all that bad (What I mean is that I know sometimes even physical abuse feels more like emotional abuse, it doesn't actually have to hurt) Then contact the authorities, if where you are is so bad that you might kill yourself then don't question, you need to be out of that situation. It's ironic, did you make a an account on here this night because you were trying to stop yourself? because I did the same...
Anyways, suicide, if you consider it a resort, consider it your last I beg you. Make yourself heard first by those who can do something!

[Addycat]

All the people on this site can do is offer you advice, and in your situation i'm almost certain that all you can do is tell somebody about your physical abuse, let them know it's an unfit environment for you.