Urgh..

[GivingUp]

Hey, i'm 16 and i get random bouts of depression.

Having one now, my mum suffers from clinical depression so i assume thats where i get it.

Anyway, i feel like sh*t right now, i left school with 3 gcse's and i'm going nowhere, i have anxiety and the few friends i have are two faced and just mock me all the time, i have recently met a girl online and all they do is laugh and call me sad.

I actually feel like i have had enough, if everyone is two faced then how am i supposed to make a TRUE friend.

I never tell anyone how i feel as i have very little confidence so i have turned to the internet for advice.

I have a best friend but all he does is belittle me and make me feel small, he comments on everything i do and sometimes it really gets to me...

I have no talent at anything, i'm not exaggerating either, i am cr*p at everything...

I had a very traumatic childhood, including watching my mother attempt suicide when i was 11, and my dad walking out when i was very young, i believe this has an effect on my general attitude.

I have also had many experiences with bullying, too many to remember.

I am ugly and pathetic.

I have attempted suicide once, a year ago and obviously.. I failed.

I feel like an idiot writing this but anyway, please help..

[Charlai]

dude that "best friend" is not a best friend, friends don't do that; they make you feel better when you're down and tell you when you're wrong and use discretion when they are going to say something especially if they know you tend to be depressed. Trust me there's something you're good at, I thought I was a sucker and I started to draw and make stuff and now I'm good at it and whenever I feel sad and depressed I make things and draw I mean sometimes it makes me feel more sad and depressed but atleast it's not bottled up inside. I totally understand how you feel, ugly is something I look at everyday: I have pimples and whiteheads, I have four or five different skin tones and I'm a bit overweight. It's hard to say I'm beautiful everyday but when i can I do and i stopped looking at what I am on the outside and looked at what's on the inside.