Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Do you ever just get to the point where you don't know what to do anymore

[Shaytun]

It seems like I have no friends. Why do all the fuckheads in the world (high school, i know its petty) get a battalion of best friends whereas real people rarely get any?
Lately my best friend has started living with his mom again. This woman absolutely hates me for no reason. She accuses me of being an alcoholic and a drug addict simply on the basis that I am 17. That's honestly it. I haven't gotten to see him in 3 weeks, he is banned from speaking to me on the phone and he blows me off in school.
My girl-best friend recently just stopped talking to me, when ever I try and talk to her she blows me off. I finally asked her what's wrong and she blew me off again.

At this point it honestly seems like I've just been abandoned by my best friends.

For 5 fucking years I've been trying to get a girlfriend, I changed the parts of me that were wrong or bad and have become a much better person but for whatever reason it doesn't fucking matter.

I'm angry as hell but I don't know who at or how to handle the rage building inside me. I see a psychiatrist and I thought he would help me understand all my feelings but I just can't find an answer or find solace or peace in anything. I don't understand and all me being alone does is amplify these feelings.

[Amberpamber]

I'm sorry that you've gone through all this. I can definately understand what you're going through though. As far as your friends go. Unforunately that is part of life. Friends come and go. If they can't appreciate you for who you are then they're really not "friends". You'll find the right group of people and even a gf. Might take a while for all the necessary pieces to fall into place but it'll happen.