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[Anonymous-Insanity]

Hey there. I'm not exactly new to this site, I've been signed up for a couple weeks now, I just haven't gotten around to posting yet. I figured now would be as good a time as any, since I'm feeling kind of low, at the moment.

I'm a 17 year old girl, and honestly, my life is pretty good. No complaints really. But the thing is, I've been feeling a bit depressed. It started right before the start of grade 10 (I'm in grade 12 now). At the beginning of my grade 10 year, I messed up pretty bad. I couldn't handle being in school so.. I tried to get out of it for a couple weeks. Needless to say, it backfired. Since then, the feeling has been kind of on and off. It's like.. depressive episodes. There are times where I have felt so down, and others where I'll feel happy. Then there are the times in between where I just feel.. nothing. I feel numb. Though the past couple months there have been more lows than highs. The only person I've really talked to about this is my best friend. I've contemplated telling my mom about it. But then I chickened out. Then I thought I might write a letter to her, explaining it all. Again, I chickened out. I just don't really know what to do at this point. The only person I truly trust, besides my best friend, I feel like pushing away. Like I don't even want him in my life anymore. And I don't know why. I know I should talk to someone, I do. I'm just scared what the result might be. I really don't want someone saying it's just hormones, or say it's because of my dad's passing or something. Because I know it's not. I know it's something more.

Sorry for this being so long..

[Dez]

Hey there,

First of all, welcome to TH! I'm glad that you have posted. This is a really great place to come to when you need advice.

Even though you may be scared to talk to someone about this, it might be your best option. You never know the outcome of something until you give it a shot, and it may be a really good idea to talk to someone about this. A professional will definitely be able to tell you what's going on, and they are really good listeners who ARE there to help you and determine if something is going on. It takes a lot of courage to talk to someone about this, but it is something that also makes you stronger. It shows you you are not alone and have a support system around you. So, take a shot, write that letter, and see where it takes you. You never know until you try! I bet you'll feel a lot better when you get everything out from inside of you. You can also talk to a school counselor or doctor about it, if that is easier for you.

Stay strong.

-Dez