Triggering (Suicide): Need Help Now

[icegirl]

I need someone to talk to. I tried to make a post earlier. Sorry to be so blunt about it, but if I don't talk to someone soon, I'm afraid I'll kill myself. I can't use a suicide hotline because my parents will see the number on our phone. I don't want to go to thle hospital. If anyone can help, please do. I'm desparate.

[Void of Creation]

i can totally help. we can carry this out on the forum, or on a pm. what do you prefer?

[icegirl]

I guess forum. Thanks.

[icegirl]

Lately, I've just been feeling dead. It used to be that I would experience extreme sadness and hopelessness, but it was better than this empty ache. My life just really sucks.

[Void of Creation]

mine too. but i'mdone with cutting and suicide thoughts. i still think about cutting, but i look at my butterfly and think of my friends. i have one for each of them, 9 in all.

[MusicIsEverything]

My life sucks too... I know what it feels like to want to die . It is not a pretty feeling. You're welcome to PM me, I'm happy to listen.

[icegirl]

Thanks. I know a lot of people probably have lives that are worse than mine. I'm just so tired of it all.

[Void of Creation]

i'm tired, in soul, mind and body, but there's still hope. just write it out. write some more of that awesome poetry i know you do, and let it all out. just vent, vent, vent. and while you're thinking, do some imaginary beard stroking. it's fun, and it lightens your dark cloud of a mood.

[Funandnice]

If you want to talk feel free to PM me, especially since I feel the same way. Also, you could go to the chat room if you want to chat with people.

[MusicIsEverything]

Lol, I completely agree, Shively and I have discussed this and the imaginary beard stroking definitely helps. I think you should write too. I do, and it really helps me. And even if your life isn't "that bad", it doesn't mean you can't be in just as much pain as all the other people whose life are "worse" than yours.... I have everything I could ever need, and I just carved the word "hate" into my arm. I know what you mean, I'm sick and tired of it all, and its hard to believe it'll ever get any better. But hang in there. And PM me if you ever need to talk, and try to take care of yourself.

[Void of Creation]

i'm betting that your arm really hurts about now. burny, tingly? stinging i'll bet. my condolences.

[icegirl]

Thanks, you guys are making me feel better with your imaginary beard stroking

[Void of Creation]

definitely stroke until you feel better. or tell yourself really lame jokes. that one always works. if i'm making you laugh, my life is complete. just pm me when you need a joke, or a shoulder for crying, etc.

[duckiedancer]

Beard stroking, I'm jealous! So at my school there was the "Grizzliest Beard Contest" it was to see which teach could grow the longest beard.. ha ha and they are each slowly shaving it down. Everyday they did a different style. And please don't hurt yourself, believe it or not people would be devasted. Someone in my state that lives over 4 hours away and I have no idea how they were or anyone at my school, but we all mourned the loss. It impacts even people that don't know you, or you know them. It is not a good decsion, regain your hope and be grateful for the little things (or big beards ha!) in life. Best wishes to you, and feel free to pm me.