I dont know what to do

[abbiekadabbie]

Hi i dont know why im posting this. maybe its my way of telling myself that i need help but either way im still posting it.
Lately for me i have been finding it very hard to be interested in things that i used to be. im really depressed and my suicidal thoughts are back. Im lost at what to do. if i tell my guidance counselor she'll tell my mom and the last time my mom was brought into all of this she didnt do anything to help. i dont know where else to go. i cant handle trying and failing again and i dont want it to get to the point where i do try to kill myself again. I really just need someone to tell me what to do because i really dont know.

[xxprincessxx]

Hey,

Maybe try talking to your guidance counselor even though she will tell your mom? Maybe you could explain to the guidance counselor that last time your mind didn't do anything to help and she could help explain things to your mom in order for you to get help! If your mom refuses to get you help, then your guidance counselor might have other alternatives you can use!

Please, whatever you do, don't attempt suicide! Your life has so much value and meaning to it and even though it's really hard right now, things will get better! Just keep hanging in there!

If you want to talk, feel free to send me a PM!

[abbiekadabbie]

the hard part about is that my mom is in rehab for a broken knee right now so they wouldnt call my mom they would call my grandparents.

[xxprincessxx]

Why would it be bad if your grandparents found out? I'm sure they would want you to get help!

[abbiekadabbie]

my grandparents are the type of people that would label me as a freak for even thinking about suicide or anything related to it.

[xxprincessxx]

Gotcha! So having your guidance counselor explain to them about what's been going won't be helpful at all? Sometimes people just don't understand but when they are told about what's going on from a professional stand point, it helps them realize. I think you should still talk to the guidance counselor even if your grandparents won't understand. It's about you, not them and if it gets you the help that you need, then it shouldn't matter what they think about it.

[abbiekadabbie]

the biggest problem im having is that i dont know how to tell my guidance counselor whats been going on.

[xxprincessxx]

I know that can be really hard, I used to have the same problems when I was in high school. How about writing a note about how you feel and sticking it in there mail box before school? Or print your above post and put it in their mail box? Or if you want to make sure 100% that they get it, you can hand it to them or leave it on there desk! That option always worked for me when I was to scared to acutal say what I was feeling or didn't know how to put it into words. Then you guys can go from there!

[abbiekadabbie]

thanks for all the help