Triggering: I don't even know

[Eyes on Fire-Xx]

Idk what to think anymore, the only person who hangs out with me is being suuuuuch a bitch to me all the time and making me misrible but I have no one else to talk to ever and everything is just driving me crazy and I keep thinking of suicide and it's scary but I would never, id hurt my bf to much. He's the only thing that makes me happy and I hate the strain i put on him but I'm only happy ehen I talk to him, so I couldn't hurt him like that. But the rest of the world is pinned against me... Suicide seems so nice, but when I'm w/ my bf it seems so selfish to think and I'm guilty but it still seems so nice... idk. Idk idk idk.......

[Eyes on Fire-Xx]

aaaand everyones busy. nevermind, then....

[xxprincessxx]

Hey,

I know what you are going through is tough but suicide is not worth it! Life gets better and you would hurt so many people, including your boyfriend. I know it feels like the world is out to get you at the moment, but trust me, it's not. It just feels like it!

If you're feeling sucidial, even if you think you aren't going to do it! I suggest talking to somebody, an adult rather that a parent, guidance counselor, or teacher, speak! If you're feeling suicidal now, please call a hotline or go to a local hospital! Your life is so worth it!

If you want to talk, feel free to PM me anytime!

[Funandnice]

I'm sorry...

[minniemouseprincess]

I've had sort of the same thing before. I'm sorry=( You can talk to me whenever you want to=) As for the suicidal thoughts, if the urge gets REALLY really bad and you think you may do something, I want you to tell someone. It prob wouldn't be a bad idea to tell someone now. Go to any adult that may help. You'll get through this though, I know you will. And if your friend keeps treating you bad, just drop her. She isn't worth your time. There's better people out there.

[Eyes on Fire-Xx]

Thanks everyone, the advice is appreciated. ^^ think I'll try talk to someone bout it...

[Eyes on Fire-Xx]

ontop it all ive had the flu for past 4 days and now cant even eat -.-; days getting better and better...

[minniemouseprincess]

Originally Posted by Eyes on Fire-Xx

Thanks everyone, the advice is appreciated. ^^ think I'll try talk to someone bout it...

Good girl=) Im sorry to hear you have the flu though=( I have a bad cold. Can't breathe through my nose and all the food i've eaten doesn't taste right.

[Eyes on Fire-Xx]

I thought about talking to someone, but when I tried to talk to my friend, well I couldn't quite get a word in and, idk. It's not quite worth it, I guess. And I've spoken to my mom and guidance councilor before. Idk...

[minniemouseprincess]

Its good you have before, but i'd do it again if you are still feeling bad. As for your friend, do you just need help on what to say?

[Eyes on Fire-Xx]

No, she just dosnt care. "I'm kinda depressed" "mhm. Whatever." so it's a bit hard to get any support.

[Eyes on Fire-Xx]

Aaaaand I just was gonna ask my parents about it's, since last time their answer was "it's your own fault your depressed, you attention seeking", but as I was going to when they came home, they decided instead to spend a half hour yelling at me over something my brother did and now I'm not allowed to show my face for next few days.

[Funandnice]

Aww... that must suck

[Eyes on Fire-Xx]

I guess it just future proves I just piss off everyone around me. *headdesk* I feel like compleat crap....

[Funandnice]

You don't piss off me. It's okay every now and then to feel like crap.

[minniemouseprincess]

I'd go to your counceler then. You don't have a very good friend if she doesn't even care when you are hurting.

[Eyes on Fire-Xx]

I've tried to go to my school counciler but she stopped seeing me. She canceled every appointment I tried to make and would forget the ones I had and tell me to come back another time. And when I did see her she just called me selfish and really didn't help :/ idk, I've tried all I can think of...only one who helps is my bf, and I hate putting that much on him >__<;

[Eyes on Fire-Xx]

And thanks funandnice ^^

[Funandnice]

Have you told your parents? Maybe then you could get a different counselor

[Funandnice]

Oh right, I forgot about comment number 12. I'm sorry =(

[Eyes on Fire-Xx]

Sok. I've tried to, I've tried everything. All I can do is just..idk. That's why I'm on here lol. Idk what I can do sides sit and suffer. And I'd very much like the option of suicide, but the only thing I care for more then my own little hell is my boyfriend. So, I couldn't. He's the only thing keeping me here, but that means there's absolutely nothing I can do now.