it's all resurfacing. -
February 9th 2012, 05:16 AM
everything i've tried to deny in the last year of my life, everything i convinced myself i was over, every "issue" that i had, i put to the back of my mind and made myself believe that it didn't matter, that it didn't need solved because i could ignore it....and i did ignore it. i hid myself from it, i had a positive attitude...and i basically "faked it until i made it." but now it's all coming back....everything that happened throughout my life that i have confronted, all of the negative feelings, the hurt and the pain that i've kept locked inside...it's all surfacing again...i can't handle it. i don't know what to do about it....i'm scared to talk about...i always say that i will...then i was turn to a lighter conversation....i don't know how to work through stuff like this...i'm scared to let people in, i'm scared to get close to people, i'm scared of life....my friend was right i have to be able to talk about it and let go of it somehow...but i don't know how.
why does everything have to fall apart, right when i thought i have normalcy for a chage. ):
all i want is a place to call my own and
mend the hearts of everyone who feels alone,
you know to keep your hopes up high and your head down low.
Re: it's all resurfacing. -
February 9th 2012, 06:40 AM
Talking is probably one of the most vulnerable points for anyone because it's a direct passage into what you're thinking and feeling (assuming your'e being honest). It can be tough, but you have to believe in a better tomorrow and want to get better. If you need someone else to talk to you, I offer my assistance as well. It's always easier to talk to someone online because you'll probably never have to see them or talk to them again if you so choose. I hope you feel better