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Unhappy Im Tired of My Life!!! - February 21st 2012, 01:37 AM

I'm tired of feeling like I Just don't get Nowhere! I'm aggravated tat people Brag bout their lives...it makes me sick! I try to make a good life n get Boyfriends n seem to get my heart broken all the time Bc of something I have tat its not my Fault! I stopped looking for a relationship! Now its where I keep running into dead ends to make my life work n it keeps stopping me! I'm sick of my life! I wish I could of died last year from my overdose! I want my life to work out but I'm losing my friends Bc of something I didn't do tat they seem tat I did! Why should I survive on tis hateful life! I'm aggravated everyday, I'm depressed like where I want to slit my wrist...I was depressed one day where I bought brand new razors to slice my arm wen I feel like it! I cant drink wen I turn 21 on April of tis year Bc of wat my Real mom did to where I cant have FUN! Wen I turn 21 on my birthday I feel like I'm going to do something to feel happy n make it where I am in da hospital of having a Liver Transplant! I just feel like giving up! I'm just tired of my Life!!!


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Re: Im Tired of My Life!!! - February 21st 2012, 03:07 AM

You need to try to focus on the good things in life. Hell yes, you've been through some bad crap. But thats ALL you're thinking of. You're not allowing yourself time to think of the good or even notice the good. The good isn't always big things, it can be small things too. You just need to let yourself look for it and notice it. Positive thinking DOES help with making things better. My friend says it really helps her and she has been through some crap too. You don't need a bf. I am 17, not that much younger than you and i've never had a real bf. I'm perfectly fine. You're just fine without one too. They aren't all they are cracked up to be. Try your best to not cut, do other coping things. ANYTHING but hurt yourself. And talk to someone about how you are doing. You shouldn't have to do this alone.


   
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Re: Im Tired of My Life!!! - February 21st 2012, 03:14 AM

i am sorry you feel that way


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Unhappy Re: Im Tired of My Life!!! - February 21st 2012, 08:24 PM

Well I understand wat yall are saying. But still it doesnt seem Happy for me. I keep having Suicide Thoughts. I keep thinking of my Birthday wen i turn 21 n Im probably going to mess it up where ill be in da Hospital for a Transplant...I feel like giving up. Seems like wen i try to put Positive Thoughts in my Head just Goes Away...Im Always Depressed bout something. I just feel like theres Nutting here worth my Life wen im in So Much Pain.

Why Should i be Happy wen i Dont Feel Happy in the Inside?
I broke down last night Crying bc im just tired of living like i do. of wat i have. I cant Blame my Real mom bc shes not in my Life. i Have to keep blaming myself for anything bad happening to me tat she did but she doesnt have to hear me cry n get aggravated bout it. I take it out on my Adopted Parents n MYSELF all the Time...

I HATE MY LIFE!!!!


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Re: Im Tired of My Life!!! - February 21st 2012, 10:30 PM

You have to REALLY focus on thinking positively. Also you need to do it more than once. Don't just try once and give up. You need to be really determined with it. Just find something, anything that isn't that bad about any situation.


   
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Unhappy Re: Im Tired of My Life!!! - February 22nd 2012, 02:01 AM

I'm not a greedy person n cant say I'm not Appreciable of wat I have in my life. I do think of the positives of how I get around w/o aggravating my parents for a ride, or I have lovely parents tat do care bout me, I have a roof, bed, food, water, clothes n tat all I can ever ask for. There's nutting really tat would make me happier other then being depressed n upset bout how I have to deal w/ these things n cant blame it on anyone except on me. Sometimes I want to Scream as in "Bloody Murder" but I cant. I tried writing my feelings down in a everyday journal tat didn't help. So now I keep myself focused on Listening to music n just keeping away from drama n hateful people.

Idk anymore. It seems like the older I get just gets harder for me to keep up...idk I feel like crying...


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Re: Im Tired of My Life!!! - February 22nd 2012, 04:40 AM

Hmm. I guess then your only other way of help is to talk to someone about what you are facing.


   
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Unhappy Re: Im Tired of My Life!!! - February 22nd 2012, 12:05 PM

I guess but i try to talk to someone but i either falling into their ways of saying something to make me confess of wats really going on. Makes me feel more worse then i was.

I mean ive always had problems but doesnt seem like wen they get good n get worse later...

I just dont think i deserve to live...

Im tired of Feeling guilty n hiding it...


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Re: Im Tired of My Life!!! - February 22nd 2012, 08:26 PM

you are not feeling sorry for yourself. these feelings are real and you are most certainly not to blame for them. but you can control to some extent how much you let this run your life. As impossible as it seems you NEED to push forward and hold your chin up. Take the blows to the face without crumbling and keep walking. You cannot let this evil thing beat you down. You are worth more than that. and even if you don't believe it I know it's true. because each and every one of us is priceless. especially the struggling. Think of how wonderful it will be when you can put down your angry fists poised at this hateful world and just look up at the stars. You can find a peaceful place. It may mean time and it may mean a lot of reworking your mind to think on the lighter side. Even when you fail I expect you to be tough. Keep working on being positive. It all sounds so stupid but the only way to move on is to be bullheaded and not take crap from anyone or anything.
think of how if you beat this you will be able to help other people with the same struggles. You could be a role model to them for proving that killing depression is possible.

Your stronger than you think

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Re: Im Tired of My Life!!! - February 22nd 2012, 11:39 PM

Yes, Ik they are real. Just the point of living w/ it everyday of my life...

I cry
I get aggravated


Nutting seems to get better


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