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Urges back, did they ever leave? - July 6th 2013, 04:21 AM

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Hey there guys, hope y'all are having a nice day.

Ok, a while back I stopped cutting (started doing other things instead) and I was successful. But I got caught popping pills and of course had to stop. For a while I was just sad, now I am wanting to cut again. Anything sets me off these days and I think I'm depressed. I don't tell my counselor because as soon as I walk into that room my mind takes over and just directs me into safer convos. I've had nightmares of me committing suicide and of me cutting myself and it's kinda setting me off. I want to cut again but I can't because I'll be caught. I saw a knife at dinner tonight and I craved it. I don't know what to do but it's driving me crazy.
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Re: Urges back, did they ever leave? - July 6th 2013, 04:44 AM

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I'm sorry to hear that you're struggling with all of this. For the urges have you looked at the Alternatives sticky for ideas on how to keep yourself busy when they come? Also when you go to your councilor try writing things down before you go and then giving it to them. I hope this has helped some!

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Re: Urges back, did they ever leave? - July 6th 2013, 05:24 AM

Yes, I've practically memorized the alternatives list. They just don't work for me anymore. My mind knows what it wants and won't stop until it gets it.
I should probably write it down and give it to her but I told my mom I was ok enough to maybe stop seeing her. My mind won't let me get help. There's this inner voice that controls me. I just want it to shut up. I long for the blade and I can't use it unless I figure out something creative. I miss the feeling. Miss it so much. The relief. I want the relief.
I want to tell my counselor but I don't know if she'll tell my mom I'm having urges. My mom already knows I used to cut, but she thinks I'm completely past that. Hell, I thought I was past it. Guess I was lying to myself this whole time.
I just want to be happy, but happy seems impossible.



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Re: Urges back, did they ever leave? - July 6th 2013, 06:35 AM

I agree with writing your problems down before you go in to see the counselor. I know it might sound stupid or unhelpful but the next time you feel these urges, sit down and try to write about them. Just write until you have nothing left to say. It's something I do often and by the time I'm done writing, I notice how I've calmed down and don't feel as panicky.

You also have to remember that the relief you find in cutting is temporary and that the addiction of self harm can end badly. If you ever need to talk to someone, you can message me and stay strong.
   
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Re: Urges back, did they ever leave? - July 7th 2013, 08:27 AM

I'm going to try and write everything down, the urges are getting worse.

My mom is going to be mad at me because I told her that I didn't need to go to the counselor much anymore and I was about to be free. Now she's going to find out that I had been hiding stuff.



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