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Unhappy I failed - January 20th 2009, 04:50 PM

8 weeks and 5 days! that's how long i went without cutting, until i messed it all up yesterday and i realised something, I'm never ging to stop cutting, the urge is too strong. The cuts hold too much power over me.
I'm a state without it, i can't think straight, i go to sleep every night hoping i don't wake up in the morning.
I still do that when I have self harmed, but the cutting makes it a bit easier to deal with somehow.
I know now that I've let myself cut again, i wont be able to stop. I'm obsessed with it again, I only broke the clean streak yesterday but already i'm looking back and thinking, How the hell did I do it? how the hell did I go that time without cutting?
I did it today at school, and I know i'm going to being doing it regularly =/ I Don't really want to but i feel so desperate, so useless without it.

I don't know what i'm expecting from this post, i just need to get it all out really. I bottle it all inside, people know about it, but i wont talk about it to anyone. i just want someone to notice how much pain i'm in. to help me.
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Re: I failed - January 20th 2009, 05:16 PM

I'm so sorry you're hurting this way. Not physically, but emotionally.

My first thing to say is 8weeks and 5 days -- Well done!!!! That is very impressive, you should be proud you went so long, not asamed because it happened once.
My second is this -- giving up cold turkey works for some, but not for all. Try working around a series of controls, there are a series of things you have to do before you cut. Mine became: Face what has upset you. Openly feel, however you feel. Discuss what has upset you. Do some physical Exercise for 15 minutes. Write for 15 minutes. Draw for 15 minutes. THEN if the urge is still there, then I may cut.
Now, it's certainly not perfect, and I'm not completely stopped, but sometimes by the time I get part way through my list, the urge is gone, and I am ready to stop thinking about it.
My third thing is actually a question -- are you getting any help, therapy or anything, because that is a good place to discuss these things, they often no strange little helpful thigns.

I'm always around to talk to if you want me, my MSN is opsn for nattering, as is my PM box (:
   
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Re: I failed - January 20th 2009, 05:39 PM

Thanks for the advice i'll try it.

Yeah I see a counsellor but it's something like once every 2-3 weeks and when i tell him things like this he doesnt really help, and I get the feeling that he just wants to get rid of me

I'll add you on msn, thanks again
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Re: I failed - January 21st 2009, 11:13 AM

My pleasure (:
   
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Re: I failed - January 22nd 2009, 01:11 PM

Sorry, do you know my MSN?
   
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Re: I failed - January 23rd 2009, 12:13 PM

No, i couldn't find it on your profile lol, but mines on my profile so you can add me if you like


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- I'm not strong enough to stay away -
- and I wanna leave -
- and I wanna stay -
- And I'm so confused -
- So hard to choose between the pleasure and the pain -
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Re: I failed - January 25th 2009, 07:41 PM

Did you get my little addie?
   
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Re: I failed - January 26th 2009, 10:04 AM

Yep , i'm not on a lot thoughh
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