help.

[xxprincessxx]

okay, so i haven't injured myself in over six months, i've had some triggers and moments when i've wanted to but none this bad.

what i think triggered it was the fact that my father and i are in the middle of this huge fight basically over something completely stupid. but i really don't feel like speaking to him at this moment in time, the thing is, my father has been the one whose always been there for me, i was able to have an open communcation with him about my self-injury which i know a lot people can't do. so i'm sitting here, trying to keep calm and not find away to hurt myself, BUT it's like he's the only adult that i can go too about this, but i really don't want to text him, i'm at my mothers right now, so the only way i can get in touch is to call/text him, and i don't really think i can. i have no idea what to say, since we haven't really talked since friday night....i seen him earlier today and basically tried to keep my distance and i just don't know. a lot of things are seriously messed up in my life right now but i can't find the words to talk about, which is basically what the fight was about. he get's mad because i can't speak about it but i can text or whatever. so basically, he's like "just stop texting me about this stuff because you're only hurting yourself, you know i'm always here when you need me but this negative stuff isn't helping you" and I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO! right now, i really want to text him but i don't want him to think that everything is okay between us.

so my question is what do i do? what do i say? how can i even begin to tell him everything i have been feeling lately? help. i'll see him tomorrow morning but i don't really have time to sit there and privatley talk with him, so yeah.

[*Jen*]

Hey Sammie,

6 months without self harm is absolutely amazing! You should be so proud of yourself for that because it is a long time to go without hurting yourself.

I am glad to hear that your father is so supportive of you because it does make a huge difference to have someone in your life who you can go to when you are struggling with things. It seems like he finds it hard to understand at times though and feels quite helpless because he can't physically stop you from self harming. It is really hard for him to understand and he probably doesn't know what to do to stop you. All you can do is be honest with him and perhaps tell him how he helps you by just being there for you. Just tell him you have been having a difficult time lately and need his support. It seems like he really wants to help you but maybe doesn't know how. So explain to him. You should definitely talk to him though because he has been really supportive of you in the past so there is no reason why he won't be now. Just seems like there has been a lack of communication lately, which has made you have an argument.

I am always here if you want to chat. Stay strong.

[annabanana.]

Hey,

Sorry this is a bit late and I hope things were okay when you saw him. Six months is awesome! You are so strong and I am proud of you.

Could you try to work things out between you and him? It sounds great that he has been supporting you like this. If you feel like you can, then I would suggest you tell him. As Jen said, it is possible that he doesn't fully understand it. Could you find a website (search on Google) that explains it a bit more, and ask him to check it out? He probably hates the fact you hurt yourself, he probably hates the fact he can't do anything direct to stop or help you. But I think all this shows he cares. Perhaps let him know how grateful you are to him for being there?

Here if you ever need me,
Take care.
Anna