The Need Is Unbearable!

[The Darkness]

I cutted, alright?
And I've stopped.
For now.
I want to cut soooooo bad, the resistance is unbearable!
I don't want to 'cause I don't wanna get caught again.
But I want to 'cause it's the suicide of little tiny wrist skin cells!
And that feels good...
And the more and more days that accumulate that I haven't done it is stacking upon me, bringing my down to the ground, drowning myself in my sorrow and shooting me straight to a living hell.
Likewise if I do. Except that the hell would be at home and the heaven would be at Willow Rock.
So it's split into two. I say the second is the best, there's a heaven there.
But I don't know... should I or should I not?
Oh wait I know what y'all are gonna say!
"No it's bad" "No, its--"whatever!
At least give me a perfectly great explanation of why not to, alright?
One that will convince me enough.
Not just "it's bad" give me why.
I need to know.

[bitesize]

Oh hun, I know the feeling!! Are there any alternatives to cutting you can do?¿ Some people use the wrist-elastic trick, or the butterfly..(we have a whole thread on them here: http://www.teenhelp.org/forums/f12-s...ves-self-harm/ it might help to have a look.) And there's so many reasons for not doing it ~ seriously, scars can be a pain in the ass. And just think of how proud you'll be the lnoger you go without doing it. And we're here to talk if you need us!!
xxx

[*Jen*]

Hey,

Yes you should think about the scars you will be left with that you will most likely have to explain at a later date. Also you don't deserve to be hurt by yourself. You might not believe me but you really don't. Self harm doesn't solve the problem either it just masks it so you never really deal with the real reason that causes you to self harm. Therefore, it is much better to perhaps write down how you are feeling and the reasons for it. That way you may be able to identify triggers that make you want to self harm. Also writing down your feelings helps to get them out rather than holding them inside, which only leaves you feeling worse.

There are much healthier ways to deal with your feeling other than self harm. So try checking out the alternatives to self harm because hopefully you will find something helpful there.

I am always here if you want to chat. Stay strong.