Almost two months.

[Lonely-Reject]

Almost Two Months.
How long ive gone now.
But im not sure if i can go any longer tonight.
Im still in school, and ive just had an entire tutor time of crying in an isolated room.
Ive been feeling down since yesterday, and my R.E teacher took away all my bracelets. I wear them because they mean stuff to me, like one was my boyfriends and another was from my brother who i havnt seen in 3 years. They all have important memories for me, and i dont think ill get them back.
She has also taken my ornage bracelet, which is a reminder to me that i can quit this, and that i am finally defeating the burden of self harm.
this is what triggered me, but its just whats been going on for ages in my life thats made me really depressed recently.
Meh, i feel like im going to explode. Ive been having fights and arguments with alot of people for not much reason.
I think i might relapse tonight tbh...
I can tell.
Ive gone so long...i cant keep it up anymore.
I dont wanna do it...but i dont even have my bracelet, which is keeping me from doing it recently...
I dont know :S
I dont feel the need anymore, ive got no reason not to do it anymore...theres no point in quitting for me now.

[EmisaurusRex]

Do something to keep you busy tonight. Keep fighting. You can do this! You've been doing great!
Take a look at the alternatives thread if you haven't already. Do some of those things. Or be around people tonight if you can.
Why did your teacher take your bracelets?

If you need/want to talk, I'm just a PM away!

[Nomophobia]

that is wrong of your teacher...did you tell her how much the bracelets mean to you? I feel like this at the moment, so I really understand xx

[Lonely-Reject]

I cant do anything to keep me busy, ive got hours with nothing to do since my dad is trict with curfews :|
Ive used the alternatives before, i have two different printed out copies.
But right now i feel like not bothering. Its so much effort, and it just dosnt feel worth it.

And the bracelets were against school uniform rules :/
So its my fault ><

[Sidhe.]

*hugs*
I'm sorry to hear you're having a rough time.
I know it's probably a little late to be replying, but I just wanted to say that I hope you're okay, and I'm here if you need. xx

[Thirteen]

Well, maybe try to get an orange anklet, at least? You can hide it, but still have that reminder on you. Or even orange earrings? Something the teachers wouldn't be as likely to spot.