never gonna end

[x_sepi_x]

ive had enough, i can not go another minute without seeing the blood.. i guess im always gna be like dis, one day after another, plenty more scars with plenty more stories.. i just cnt stop.. its like a continuous circle, u start cutting, then u stop and then u cut again.. there's no point in even feelin the happiness of how many SH free days ive gne through, coz it's always gna go back to square one..

[Nomophobia]

Hey there, Sorry to hear you are feeling like this, but I totally understand
It is a circle, you are exactly right...but you can break it and escape this. You are not alone. You need to believe that you can beat this, and you should feel proud about doing sh free for even a few hours, never mind days!!! You can beat this, I promise.
Do you have any professional help?
We are all here to help you and I'm willing to listen if you want to talk to me x

[Syzygy.]

Hi Saba.

Sorry to hear you're feeling like this. But the thing is, by thinking these negative thoughts, you're actually making them come true. "Whether you think you can or think you can't, you're right". So if you approach something like recovery with a negative attitude, you most likely won't succeed - which will only prove your theory, make you even less inclined, and keep the vicious cycle going. Maybe a good first step would be to make a few positive statements. Instead of thinking you'll always be like this, be realistic: 'I may be like this now, but I don't have to be forever' or 'I self harm now, but that doesn't mean I always will'.

You say cutting is a continuous circle - that's true. But like Georgia-Louise said, it can be broken. You just need to find the motivation to stop, to work through it. Try thinking of reasons not to cut. Think of a time when you didn't give in to an urge; what stopped you? Would that help again?

Finally, one thing I've found is this: different things work for different people. That sounds obvious, I know, but let me explain. Some people find that couting their SH-free days helps, because it keeps them focussed on recovery. For others, though, they find that counting only makes them think about self harm more, and by taking each day as it comes, not thinking about the others, they recover more quickly. Maybe the latter might work for you?

Feel free to PM me if you want. And remember: you can do this.

Good luck!

[x_sepi_x]

thanks guys but im just so hopeless, it's never gna end.. yh ive been seeing a councellor for over a year now, dnt really talk much about sh, it's more the things we talk about that make me wanna sh, if u get me..

[Kakorrhaphiophobia]

Hey,

I know it's really hard to quit cutting, but you can do it!! It's okay to slip up, everyone does it, you have to keep telling yourself that you'll try not to cut for a certain amount of days, when you reach that goal add on to it, reward yourself with something once you pass that goal.
I think you should explain to your counselor that what you talk about makes you want to cut, maybe explaining that to them can help them discuss cutting with you and help you find ways to deal with the things that trigger you to cut. If the conversations are triggering you, they should stop, your ccounselor is someone you should trust and they will understand completely if you let them know that the discussions trigger you to cut. I think discussing this with them will help and let them know about how long you've been cutting, if they don't already know, and what you think might help you stop, for example, talking about different things.
You shouldn't have to keep talking about things that make you have feelings that make you want to hurt yourself.
I hope I've been of some help to you, if you ever need anything, you can PM me and I'll be glad to help. I know you cand o this!