Triggering (SH): Hurting myself worse than ever. I can't handle this pain.

[Maiden]

My girlfriend of two years broke up with me 5 weeks ago and I can't handle it anymore. I've been trying so hard to accept it but I haven't been able to. But now I'm finally starting to accept that she's not coming back and letting all the pain in but it hurts so bad. So bad that I've started taking it out on myself. I haven't hurt myself for about two years and I only ever did it once in a while. I'm hurting myself worse than I ever have before now. I don't even know why I'm doing it. But everything just hurts so bad and I can't handle it. I can't handle her leaving me. I love her so much and she's never coming back. I can't handle it. She means everything to me and I don't want to accept that she's gone.

[Thirteen]

Hey Liadan (love your avatar, BTW. ),

I'm sorry you're taking this so hard, and its difficult to get over a relationship that lasted so long. I had a messed-up time after breaking off a relationship of over 3 years (long story, but it had to be done), and well, it sucks.

But, taking it out on yourself won't help matters. Do you have any healthy ways to vent? May I suggest the Alternatives Thread, if you haven't already checked it out (or even just want a refresher).

You were able to go so long without causing harm to yourself before, so I believe you can do it again.

Feel free to PM me if you need anything, I'll try my best.

[Maiden]

I feel like I'm going to die. I don't know how to handle this pain. It's worse than anything I've ever felt. I don't understand how anybody survives pain like this. When will it get better.

[Thirteen]

I can't give you a definite time, since it varies from person to person. But as hard as it may seem, you just got to try and carry on. *Shrugs* Sorry I can't be of any more help.

[facemeetpavement]

Awh, I'm sorry you're taking this really hard.
But, like the second poster said, take a look at the alternatives.

I have a ton to say, so just PM me if you would like to chat about anything :]]

[lovetakesoverr]

Just keep holding on, and try not to take it out on yourself.
Life will always get better, you just have to keep on truckin' until you reach the light at the end of the tunnel. You can make it through this!
And, PM me if you need to vent/talk.

[LostInMyStory]

i know your asking when, and I wish I could tell you, but I know that there is. If you can convince yourself and hold yourself to it that there will be a better. then youll get through it. I know somewhat of the pain your dealing with, in a little bit more of an abstract way. There are a couple of thigns that a counselor ever told me that actually helped, and thats the fact if you two are meant to be together it will happen. do you still talk to her as friends, i know i couldnt for a long long time. but it helped me. shes going to still care about you, theres no way someone can stop caring about you after devoting a part of their life to you after 2 years.