self mutilation

[ac2]

i have been suffering from depression for a few months, and have had little luck in ways of dealing with it. I feel like I can't talk to people, and no one understands. I know every depressed person on the planet feels like this but I really feel helpless.
the first time I got really depressed was in 7th grade when my first boyfriend broke up with me. childish, I know. but everyone then was cutting themselves, so I tried it. and it let off steam.

so I started doing it whenever I got pissed. after about two weeks or so, I stopped doing it.
I recently started doing it again. for no apparent reason. I don't want to start this again. i'm not suicidal yet, but i'm worried if I don't do something, it could get there.
I don't feel like I can talk to my mother about this.

i'm not good at talking about my feelings and I think she would just get mad that I cut myself.

[Total Light Storm]

Hey Ac2,

I completely understand how you feel about telling your mom that your depressed and that you've been cutting yourself. I felt the way you feel right now before my family found out I was cutting and depressed. It's an extremely hard thing to do, tell someone about self mutilation, but it's completely worth it in the end.
You say your worried your mom will be mad at you because you are cutting yourself, maybe you could write her an email or letter explaining to her that you do this and that you want help for your depression and the things that make you cut. Also, you could look for some information to give her on cutting for parents. A good site is:
http://hubpages.com/hub/What_Parents...About_Cutting_
And
http://depression.about.com/cs/selfi...njuryfacts.htm
and
http://www.goodtherapy.org/blog/chil...apy-parenting/
I hope the above links help you out if you try to explain this to yoru mom. It won't be an easy task to open up to her about this, but I know you can do it.
If she seems mad at first after you tell her or if she seems really worried, that's okay, it's the mother in her, she will probably be shocked and worried about you because you are doing this to yourself and she might even feel like it's her fault in someway. It will take time for her to accept this and she will probably do whatever she can to get you help, you have to want to accept the help. In order to deal with self harm, you have to want to deal with it and want the help, which I can tell by this post, you do want help for this and will most likely accept any help you can find.
Also, if you don't feel like you can tell your mom at all, is there anyone else in your life you trust and would be willing to tell about this? Telling someone would be very helpful to you in trying to get help.
I hope I have helped you out in some way, if you ever need anything, I'm always available for a PM or VM and will be glad to reply and help you as best as I can.
Good luck with this and take care.

[Ally_Georgiiie]

Heyy Ac2
I know what your going through.I've been cutting for 2 years now. The only thing I can seguest is getting a quiting buddy. Wich Reminds me I'm up for grabs.PM me anytime you like and I'll try to help the best I can. Hope I've been a help

[DivingCheska]

I know what your going through seen as I used to cut myself and have been cut free for 3 years. I hate talking about my feelings always have. I have always kept them inside and that among other things lead to the cutting. My grandma doesn't get it at all and it was fustrating she would try and understand but it was hard. I think you should try and get a counclor I know you said its hard to talk about your feelings trust me I get that but i have a counclor and when I do talk it helps. Your age says you are 21 so your mom doest even have to know that you have a counclor and because your over 18 everything is confidential...the only thing they have to report still I think is if your being abused, or they think your a danger to yourself. Plus the counclor I have understands its hard to talk so she lets me sit there and be quite for a while. So try finding one if you don't like them but think it will help try another. If you ever need to talk I'm always here

[BMSTHE1]

hi i am new and i am 14 years old. Man... i hear you guys. i know it is hard to stop. I am trying to stop and it is very hard!!!!! But trust in God. He put me through this to bring me to himself. I became a Christian through this. I am being counceled and it is working, i suggest it to all of you. I did not think that there was any other way to get relief from what life throws at you, other than to cut. But when Jesus opened my eyes it all became clear! He is the relief, run to Him when you need help. He always has open arms to all who come!