I don't know what to do

[AimeeK]

I'm only 13, and I've been cutting since I was 7. I used to cut on my stomach or hip, the places no-one would look or would think I just fell out of a tree or something. But, lately, it's becoming more recent. In the past year the longest I've gone without cutting is a day. My arms are covered in scars and I never wear tank-tops or short sleeves anymore. I keep trying to stop, but I can never make myself throw the blade away. I have 6 of them, just so I know i have at least one. I don't even cut because of the emotional pain anymore, it's all just to feel the blade digging into my skin and watching the blood stream out. I have no idea what to do, I just, I want help. My parents don't know and only a few close friends are aware of what I'm doing.

[sassygurlone]

I'm sorry that you are going through this, I also deal with self-harm on a daily basis, I know how bad the addiction can get. I have found that throwing out the tools don't stop me from cutting, I just go and find something else which is usually more dangerous because I will use any thing I can find whether it's clean or not. I think that it would be helpful to talk to a counselor or something. Until then have you tried any of the things on the alternatives thread? If you find that one thing doesn't work throw that one out and try another. If you ever want to talk about anything feel free to PM me.