He was the reason, but he still makes it better.

[DeadlySin]

It usually takes something huge to set me off enough to self harm.
I've tried cutting, I didn't like the throbbing feeling.
So then I picked up scratching. Just fining a sharp object and going at it till I bleed. Problem is if I do it too hard it scars.


So before I was dating my boyfriend and I was head over heels for him we were talking. I'd admitted to crushing on him before and then lied and said I was over it. But then I felt I should tell him I still really like him...

But upon telling him, he seemed to ignore me and go off about a girl he loved. Seemed to just ignore me. I was super upset.

I ended up making 36 scratches on my upper arm. One for every guy that hurt me.

The one that was for him....was the only one that scarred. =/

When he first saw the scratches he said he felt like he failed as a friend.


Later on when we dated, I told him the scar is the one that was "for him" Since the first cut is always the deepest, right?

Anyway, now everytime he sees me looking at it. He'll just grab my arm an kiss it.
Even though the scar won't go away.

The pain from it goes away with his kisses. =)

Now i'm working on a better way to relieve stress and frustration.
He doesn't want me or anyone else hurting me.
So I promised I wouldn't.

It's now been a month since i've hurt myself. =D

[jasmin22]

Wow. this story has really opened up my eyes.
First of all i think it's great that he managed to stop you from hurting yourself and prevented you from making any more scars.
Second of all, this is the sweetest story i have heard in a while.
I hope you both the best of luck and hope you guys last forever! x