Triggering (SH): I promised myself!

[Unicorn ♥✿]

I actually never thought I could do this!
But the presure is on right now , I'm a bit sad and it seemed so easy.
Once I got going , I didn't wanna stop.
My left wrist is having to be hidden all the time now , I use bangles and stuff , but it stings , it really does , I woke up today and thought , "how dumb of me!"
But I still know i'll do it later.
But I don't want to!
What shall I do?
How do you guys stay away from it?
This is crazy , usually i'm so cheerful (look at my previous posts and threads , you'll see!)
WTF hapend?
Thanks

[LittleFish]

Hey, hon. Sounds like you're a bit confused right now. I kind of know how you feel, wanting to stop but feeling unable to. My best suggestion is to find an alternative. There's a whole list of them stickied in this forum, and some of them are helpful. I'd also suggest you hide whatever you're using to hurt yourself. Put it somewhere that you wouldn't be able to easily get to it. And if you find an object in your environment that you could use, put that away too until you know that you can trust yourself not to use it for SH. And if you have a close friend that you can confide in, do it. It might be hard, but it could really help. I'm sorry, but that's about the best advice I can give. Good luck, and whatever is wrong, I hope you feel better.

[sassygurlone]

I know how you feel. I don't want to self-harm either, I really don't. Most of the time I feel like I have no other choice. It's deff going to sting for a few days, probably the only thing that would help that is neosporin. I also agree with LittleFish, put your tools in a place that will be very difficult for you to get to when you get the urge and try some of the alternatives, I know for me they don't always work but I keep trying anyway. Good luck!

[x_sepi_x]

you gotta keep tryin, in the end you will beat it. its a long hard process but it can be done.. as for the stinging, use some antiseptic cream, it'll help cool your skin down.. take care..xx

[Unicorn ♥✿]

I did confide , sorta , my friend saw and asked if I 'fell over' I said yes styraight away , later she says , 'i know your bs**ting me'
So I told he and she criend , and I got angry and sAID ,'WHY THE HELL ARE YOU CYRYING?' then I cried , so It was very sad
But she made me promise her , and she says she's gonna check up on me too , so unless I stop , she's gonna freak! I've tried the alternatives thréad , I think i'll try the scribbling thing ^^
But it is rather hypocritical of her to have a go at me! When she wasn't eating and I got upset did she change for me? NO! She continued with her dumb ass 'diet' no matter how many tkimes i said she was fine , ok , I understand she had a problem , but so do I , it's not one rule for one , one for another!
Turns out she was making it all up anyway... she didn't have a problem at all , she was just craving attention , which is a problem , but you shouldn't pretend you have an eating disorder!