WHY??

[Dark Horse]

I told myself that I wouldn't do this again. I mean, it's stupid! All it does is leave bruises....I never really cut before. Just hit/bruised myself. Last night I did cut, but I wasn't even feeling overwhelmed, I just felt nothing...it was kinda weird. Anyway, so I take the scissors and....yeah you now the rest....it was kinda bleeding a lot, and.....now this is going to sound like I'm a gross attention-seeker...but I like took the scissors and started...like writing my name in my visual diary with the little bit of blood

I know, it certainly sounds like I'm just trying to be all creepy-sounding just to get attention, but I swear, I'm not!! Or maybe I am...but is it so wrong to want to be noticed once in a while? But I didn't do it for attention, I know I didnt........I didn't feel anything. I just did it without thinking....uurrrggggh

Now I feel all weird. Why the hell would someone do that?? I'm a normal person, I'm not sadistic or whatever...anyway, I don't expect anyone to have a kind answer (I'm annoyed at myself too)...........just thought I'd let it out. I feel stupid

[Liz94]

Self harm isn't healthy but it isn't stupid. rite in a diary how you feel when you have an urge then you can work out why you want to or are self harming.

If you ever need to talk then I am here for you
Stay strong X

[justfallinginlove]

You arent stupid and u arent weird. Its just something u felt like doing. Its okay. But self harming isnt the answer. It doesnt make u an attention seeker to post on here, it makes u someone who wants help. Thats a great thing and the first step. Please try to stop. Im here for you! Good luck <3

[Reverie.]

Hey there,

You aren't stupid at all, or weird and I'm sure not attention seeking. SH is a coping mechanism and sometimes we do just do it without thinking. Imagine a nervous habit, such as bouncing your leg up and down whilst sitting on a chair. You don't really notice it until you think about it. Of course this is on a much bigger scale and should be sorted. Just remember, you're not stupid at all, and it's not wrong to want to be noticed but there are healthier ways of getting the attention you want, and need.

If you're struggling with this, try using these alternatives and finding the ones that give you something better to do for yourself. Not all will work, but it's a matter of trial and error in finding those that do. Don't be put off if it takes a while, it's a long list and there a bound to be ones that you can use to help yourself through this. Try not to hurt yourself in any way, because it isn't nice and it does leave nasty marks that really, everone could do without.

Stay strong, you can do this.
Hollie.

[jaii]

nothing wrong with wanting to be noticed, that is what we are all here for, to help you, rant all you like im here to listen, PM any time, hope you feel better about it soon.