Triggering (SH): i cant stop it.

[jaii]

i cant stop cutting, i just cant.
its tearing me up inside.
i cant tell anyone, my best friend knows, thats all. i hate this secret, i cant help it.
im diabetic, my dad recently left.

my life is ruined.
i dont care if you do, you propably wont, i just need to get it out.
im falling in love with ym best friend and i cant tell her. every time i see her i die a little bit inside, becuase shes not a lesbian, and i think i am.
i cant help cutting, its becime like second nature, and its unbearable, hiding my own body, my own feelings, from everyone, my family.
they have no clue, i cant do it. i cant pretend that its ok any more.

i want to die. i do, i cant stop the feelings, but i wont do anything, without trying to get help first.

i have found knew ways to hurt myself, with less noticable scars, and this is becoming addictive.

(which catergory does this fir in, im sorry, i dont know)

help, what can i do !!!???

[blumemusik♫]

It's so sad you feel this way I saw you ask for the list of alternatives in the chat room, so that's a fantastic place to start.

Cutting is actually addictive because of the hormones released when you self harm, so it's going to be incredibly difficult to stop. But I believe in you

<3

[jaii]

thank you, it feels great knowing that you believe in me, and yes, i am trying to find ways to stop. its hard, but i hope i will get there. i just hate having to deal with it alone.

[Le bonheur*]

Originally Posted by sophaa

i just hate having to deal with it alone.

^^you're not alone dear. there are a lot of people here on teenhelp that are very supportive.

[Discombobulated]

Hey there,

I'm really sorry things are hard for you at the moment and CAN stop, I believe in you: you just need to believe in yourself. As you may already know SelfHarm is very addictive and can get worse over time, I strongly to encourage you to try and stop now; the alternatives thread is very useful and will help to distract you from the urges. Not all may work for you, but hang in there and you WILL find one that does.
Also I think you should talk to someone about this - an adult you trust. That way they can help and support you through this. Remember, you are never alone!
Feel free to PM me if you ever want to talk, you CAN do this, stay strong.

Take care,
Charli