Triggering: Sensation of injury

[Venenum]

Firstly, I'm a guy. Haven't seen that much guys self-harming yet, so.. No idea what to say. Just pointed out.

I have no suicide thoughts. I was just alone once, very alone, and all the people around me ignored me, and acted disrespectful and shellfish.
I didn't want to be a part of them no more, so now I'm all alone.

I came up with this strange thought, and found myself a sharp blade-like -doesn't matter, it was sharp.
After sitting still just thinking for hours I took the blade and cut myself.
It was beautiful, the skin teared apart so nicely, and the blood began to pour. It looked so beautiful, sometimes I take off my clothes and examines scars, and fresh wounds.
I admire them, I've never seen anything that beautiful in my life.

I can't explain, it's a special feeling, like love.

Sometimes I also taste the blood too. So, procedure time: Anyone feel the same?

[Switzerland]

First of all, welcome to the community, Venenum! I hope this site is as helpful for you as it has been to me.

I think I know the feeling you are talking about. I have looked at my wounds, and though nothing but 'wow.' I never could explain the way I was feeling, or why I felt it, but I knew that I liked it. It was something special to me. Something that was all mine, that no one else could spoil. And it was, as you said, beautiful. Sometimes I still look at myself and think that about my scars! I love them, sometimes!
My scars make me special, make me unique. My scars are what make me me, and I think thats what makes them beautiful to me.

But for the most part, I've stopped. So they also represent a part of my past that has defined me. To me, they are memories.They are the parts of me that have hurt as a teenager. They are the bads, while the goods are in my head. They are the part of me that I can use to teach others. Thats beautiful to me.

[Le bonheur*]

Originally Posted by Venenum

Firstly, I'm a guy. Haven't seen that much guys self-harming yet, so.. No idea what to say. Just pointed out.

I'm not a guy, but I hope you don't mind me replying to this thread

Originally Posted by Venenum

It was beautiful, the skin teared apart so nicely, and the blood began to pour. It looked so beautiful, sometimes I take off my clothes and examines scars, and fresh wounds.
I admire them, I've never seen anything that beautiful in my life.

I can't explain, it's a special feeling, like love.

Sometimes I also taste the blood too. So, procedure time: Anyone feel the same?

I feel this way a lot. Nothing can replace that feeling.

Scars make you who you are, and that's unique and beautiful. Inside and out.

Although, I'm trying to stop cutting; I'll always have the scars to remind me of what I was feeling at that moment in time.

[call_me_strange]

i definitely agree, my cuts are so perfect in my eyes. so beautiful and it cant be spoiled by anyone ,they're MINE. i love everything about them ( except the stigma they come with) and its a feeling of joy that I don't think I could ever fully explain.
im not a guy but i replied anyway :$

[Venenum]

Thanks for the replies, they're amazing and I feel happy when I read them.

As long as you don't overdo it, self-harm is a good thing, well short-term at least.

You also learn to feel and know your body in a whole new way, you learn more and get
more confident about yourself. This is the connection between body and soul.