Triggering (SH): My friend saw my scars

[Buckie]

So I wasn't being careful enough on saturday and so my friend saw some old scares that's on my arm. I was drunk, and acted like I was even more drunk, just laughing and joking and changing the subject from the questions she asked me.
I hide my scares well. I started cutting about 6 years ago on my arms but then got scared that people might see them, so I started on my legs instead. Nobody has ever seen it ..untill now. And it really scares me.. I'm scared that she will tell anybody else, I'm scared that she will ask me questions and I'm scared that she will think it's stupid. She disn't say anything the next day (she was staying over) and I haven't answered her calls since then. What can I do? Avoid her forever?

I really want to find my knife now.. It's been two moths since the last time, but the last few days, I have just not been able to get it off my mind.. I'm just so tired...

[minniemouseprincess]

I am sorry=( But please, Don't cut again. To tell you the truth, maybe its good that she saw them. I would def. NOT not talk to her again or try to avoid her. If she is a good friend, she will try to help and thats it. She prob has not said much because she is scared for you, not because she thinks its stupid. Don't be afraid alright? I think you should have a convo with her about them. Tell her that thats what you used to be like and that you have stopped. Explain to her that you don't want people to know. But also understand that if she does tell, it wouldn't be because she wants to hurt you or betray you. It would be because she cares about you. Telling is actually prob the most selfless thing any friend could do for you because they would be trying to help YOU. To make things better for YOU.

[TheCrowing]

It does feel good to open up to someone.. I recently did that, and I promise that you will feel so much weight off your shoulders. But if you aren't ready.. why don't you just act as if nothing happened, like she never saw them. And stop ignoring her.. it'll just make her that much more suspicious. Then, if she ever brings them up, tell her, but make sure she understands where it's coming from. If she doesn't bring it up, lucky you.

[calgary01]

Hopefully she'll help you. If not, she's not a good friend. Don't be scared. Stay strong, and PLEASE don't cut again....hugs

[Buckie]

Thanx for answering. I'll just pretend it never happened, and see how that goes..
Wasn't feeling too good yesterday, so I ended up cutting. So today I'm just angry at myself..!

[daisyduck]

First of all, it really depends on the person, as to whether or not they say anything. She could be understanding, close enough to you that she'd be worried about losing your friendship and betraying your trust, or, like you said old enough that she didn't know the true extent and isn't worrying as much as you think. I remember when my best friend saw some of mine, we had a quick conversation, and it was never brought up again. I know of other cases at my school though, where girls were walking around with big open gashes on their arms, and a number of people became worried about their safety and reported it. I, like you, cover mine extremely well, but if you're worried about your friend telling someone, you should talk to her. Maybe you could see what she thinks of the whole situation, and possibly talk to her about your secret. However, as minniemouseprincess said, maybe it is best that she saw. You have an opportunity to lift some weight off your shoulders, and even get the help that could make you feel better.
I remember when i finally told my therapist, she ended up telling my parents, and they really weren't upset (although i don't think they understood because they never even told me they knew). Good Luck, Stay Strong. PM me if you like