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Linds August 22nd 2011 02:14 PM

Last night...
..was hell on earth. The thoughts of surgery running through my head. School s getting in the way of life. It's pointless for me to be up here..I'm only waisting my money on a degree could care less about.Needing comfort I find none. Needing love but finding absence. My dad is loaded sending me messages telling me what a horrible daughter I am. My mom still isn't back..She's been gone for a month now...No one really knows why she left. I saught comfrot in an old friend. I pulled out my knife and lighter. Hello beautiful. I cut and burned and cut and burned. Ahh that's better. Blood on my dorm floor puddling on the white tiles. the room is spinning i need to stop the bleeding. I get off the floor and stumble to the sink for a rag...I wake up a few hours later laying by my desk me head killing me and more blood on the floor. Now I'm in this hell hole of a hospital wanting nothing more then to get out. How do I get out of this place?

Palmolive August 22nd 2011 05:52 PM

Re: Last night...
Hey there.

I'm really sorry things are so hard for you right now. It sounds like you're going through such a rough patch at the moment.

I don't know whether you're in a general hospital or a psychiatric one but either way you're probably best staying there for now so you can get either the medical help or the emotional help which you need to help you start to get better.

I know things are rough for you right now but you do have a future ahead of you can the world is at your feet. Make a list of all the things you can do with your life. I'll even start it off for you :)

What I can do with my life
  1. Get a degree
  2. Have a career
  3. Get married
  4. Have children
  5. Celebrate christmas
  6. Write a book
  7. Help others
  8. Run the marathon
  9. Travel the world
  10. Have a night out

And keep on adding. Because you can have so much to your life and you need to hold on to these sort of things to help keep you going. You can and will get there if you put your mind to it. It's going to take time and hard work but you can get there. You are worth so much and if you ever want to talk to me about whats hurting you so badly then feel free to shoot me a PM, or even if you just need/want someone to rant too. I'd be more than happy to listen to you.

Stay strong, you can fight this.

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