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out of control - September 5th 2011, 11:55 AM

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I've relapsed into cutting. Fuck! Yesterday 10 times. This morning I just carved WORTHLESS and DIE into my stomach and arm. My body hurts like hell, but I want to cut more now... Am I crazy?


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Re: out of control - September 5th 2011, 05:25 PM

Hey; I'm really sorry No, you're not crazy. It's addicting, and it's hard to handle. That doesn't make you crazy, the fact that you gave in makes you human. But you're going to keep pushing and eventually you're going to make it out of this, alright? Stay strong!


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Re: out of control - September 5th 2011, 08:05 PM

You're not crazy at all.
Once you start again, all you crave is more.
Faith is right, you're only human.
You're going to make it through all of this alright. I know that things can seem really messed up at times, but you'll get through it and it will be better.
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Re: out of control - September 5th 2011, 08:42 PM

As the others have said; you're not crazy, you're addicted to cutting.

You titled this thread as "out of control" and so in order for this to stop you need to get back in control.

The mind can play tricks on us and will us to do things we know we don't really want to. You have to be strong and go against these thoughts and urges if you want to stop cutting.

It is possible to overcome this addiction, you just need to take control of the situation. When you feel the urge to cut, do something else instead like write those words on paper, or scream into a pillow.


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Re: out of control - September 6th 2011, 01:38 PM

I've tried many ways to distract myself, but none of them works. If I was not crazy, I would not have become addicted to cutting in the first place, right? People are scared of me because I am such a freak.


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Re: out of control - September 6th 2011, 09:56 PM

i'm not scared of you, we're all freaks. you're not crazy, we all know how addicting it is and how hard it is to quit. you're worth it, you're beautiful and i love you! you are not a freak! if youre a freak, i'm a freak and i know i'm already a freak and i'm not bringing anyone down with me.
please remember that you are worth it and i'm here for you. ok? *hug*





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Re: out of control - September 7th 2011, 08:59 AM

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i'm not scared of you, we're all freaks. you're not crazy, we all know how addicting it is and how hard it is to quit. you're worth it, you're beautiful and i love you! you are not a freak! if youre a freak, i'm a freak and i know i'm already a freak and i'm not bringing anyone down with me.
please remember that you are worth it and i'm here for you. ok? *hug*

I don't see other kids in my class cut themselves. They are not suicidal as I am. Seriously, there's something wrong with me. I feel like I am cursed or something. Why me? Why can't I be normal?

Today in class, I felt like everyone was staring at me. They might have already known about my addiction... I couldn't breathe and had to lock myself in the toilet and calm myself down with my blade. When the moment like that comes, the only thing on my mind is hurt myself.


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