why did i say that?

[*Learningtobreathe*]

the other day, my friend was helping me trim trees and she told me to watch out so she didn't hurt me with the trimmers and i said, " i don't need help with that" as in i don't need help hurting myself. she didn't here me and i just blew it off.
it keeps running through my head though and i want to know Why the hell did i say that? is SH stuck in my head that i think every little thing means i need to cut? why did i say that? what was i thinking? does anybody else make comments like that that they regret almost immediately?

[Shanielle]

I've had times when I almost blurted out that I cut. It is something you think about a lot and something no one is supposed to know about, but sometimes you forget to keep secrets a secret. Just be careful in the future.

[Fairy Poppins]

We all say things without thinking and usually end up regretting them.

I wouldn't let it play on your mind, especially since she didn't hear you.

[smiles07x]

i know what you mean..i Sh too and it's not too much or bad but sometimes i want to just scream it so that i can stop thinking about it when i get overwhelmed..

[Nomophobia]

yeah you arent alone here, we all have moments when we want to blurt our secrets. there have been many times when i have said things that i had sworn i would keep to myself.
maybe you should tell this friend though? i think that sometimes saying things like that is a hint that subconsciously we want to tell that person for various different reasons. just bear that in mind x

[sassygurlone]

I've had this happen too. I don't think about and it just slips out, most of the time people don't realize what I meant, sometimes I just brush it off, and a couple of times I have had to explain myself. I try to watch what I say, but every once in a while it slips out.

[WildHeart]

I've blurted out stuff like this many times... Like my friends and I were laughing and making jokes, and one of them was a put down made into a joke, and I made my innocent face and randomly said "you make me feel so bad I want to cut myself!" yeah... Not. Good. But I tried to just push it a side by saying I was only joking...

[*Learningtobreathe*]

thanks guys! this really helps. i try to get it out of my head by replaying my favorite songs over and over in my head. two of my friends are SH or were and one tried to kill himself. i try to watch what i say around them and others i want to talk to them about it or go into a clearing in the middle of a forest somewhere with them and scream until it hurts. I'm so tired of hiding it! both of them know though. i don't know if they know that i still do, but.....