Triggering (SH): Help...?

[Haylee.]

Cut myself today.
On my arm.
It hurts.
it bled more then usual.
if there even is a "usual"
Sometimes I feel like a freak.
Like, who the heck would CUT themselves on purpose?? Crazy. That's what it is.
But sometimes I just don't give a crap. It doesn't matter. who cares. It's MY body, right? I can do what I want. and hey, it might cause me to die, but that's my choice. I can keep cutting. each time it's a near death experience. but no big deal.

tell me, why is it so bad that I cut myself? Right now I'm just not seeing the problem...

[sassygurlone]

Well I can say that a lot of people cut themselves on purpose. It's not healthy, it's not good, but it doesn't make all of us crazy. A lot of people care, I care, everyone on TH cares. You're not a freak, you just need a better way to deal with things as do all of us who self-harm. The thing that is bad about self-harming is that it becomes an out of control addiction that doesn't solve anything and only creates more problems. If you ever need anyone to talk to feel free to pm me. I know all about SH as it's something that I struggle with every mintue of every day.

[WildHeart]

I would SO be telling you that there is a problem with SH... But right now I'm in the same spot as you, so I wont lie and say 'I know lots of problems with this' when I don't believe it myself... Sorry I'm no help...

PM me if you ever need to talk :]

[Palmolive]

Hi there.

I am really sorry things are so rough for you that you're at the point that you're hurting yourself on purpose. It's a horrible and hard place for people to be in.

You say you sometimes feel like a freak and that it's crazy you're cutting yourself on purpose. But I want you to know self harm is actually quite common, as awful as it is, and you'll probably be surprised at the amount of people who do or who have self harmed in their lives. It's not crazy at all. It works and it becomes addictive which is why so many people do use it as a coping mechanism.

I want to encourage you to take a look at this link. I know sometimes it's hard to make yourself use distractions and alternatives but they can be really beneficial and can help you beat the urges. Sometimes we feel we don't want to bother using them but sometimes we also have to force yourself to do it until the urges go away. It's hard work but you can do it. If you come across something which doesn't help don't give up, keep on trying new things.

If you ever need anyone to chat to feel free to shoot me a PM. I know it's hard right now but things can and will get better for you. Just stay strong and don't stop fighting this.

Jessie

[Haylee.]

thanks guys. <3 your encouraging words mean a lot.

[Dr.Bobby]

Originally Posted by Beautiful.Disaster

I can keep cutting. each time it's a near death experience. but no big deal.

tell me, why is it so bad that I cut myself? Right now I'm just not seeing the problem...

It's a 'Big deal' b/c you cannot see that 'near death' experiences are very dangerous!

Tell your folks, get some therapy! There's no reason to flirt blindly with death.

[smiles07x]

i know what you mean...i cut..not a lot but have been for about 4 months now..and whenever i do it i feel guilty afterwards and feel like it was stupid to do because sometimes its just over stupid stuff and sometimes its when I'm crying or something...but then oddly enough i think.."no its okay..whats the difference..people smoke cigarettes and thats harming your insides..so why can't i cut myself?" i know it sounds crazy but it's kinda the same thing right? like how come people make such a big deal of cutting? i know its wrong too but then smoking a cigarette for adults is ok?