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Madness - September 9th 2011, 01:52 PM

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Last night, I lost it once again. I knew I was going to snap...was so angry that my whole body was shivering. I felt friggin sick. Why couldn't I have control over myself? I felt like it was not my body anymore. That was weird... I just knew that I needed to bleed, so I slashed my left thigh in the bathroom...couldn't remember how many times. After that, I smeared my blood all over the walls. I was standing still and watching myself bleeding... I was covered in blood, but my body stopped shaking. When I looked in the mirror, I saw her smiling at me. It took me a minute to realise that she was me. That feeling was so bizarre.


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Re: Madness - September 9th 2011, 07:54 PM

I've had it this bad quite a few times... Where I would smear blood all Over the bathroom floor and kind of use it as finger paint... An all those times I was like completely out of control... Shaking, and just not in my own mind... It was like I was dreaming and when I woke up EVREYTHING was covered in blood... Sometimes I just have to tell myself that I'm in the REAL world and just force myself to snap out of it...


People say I'm happy, and I'm good at what I do, but what people never realize is that I'm a damn good actress too...
   
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Re: Madness - September 10th 2011, 01:31 PM

Suz, thx for sharing your story with me. I thought that I was the only one. Anyways, good to know that someone like you can understand me.


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