Triggering (SH): Should i go and talk to a counselor?

[chocolateluver]

I'm confused, i've been SH a lot more regularly in the last month, and I don't WANT to. I want to talk to someone but i'm scared. I don't want my mum to know so if i go see the school counselor the school might tell my mum and i'm so confused! My mum will get mad if she finds out and I DON'T want to coddled and watched and scolded for SH, i know it's wrong and i'm trying to stop but... I CAN'T.

Sigh, it's not just the privacy issue that is concerning me about, it's incidents in the past that tell me that talking to a counselor just makes things worse! I lost it last week and really cut myself so it left scars, it just broke the skin and didn't really bleed, and because I live in a hot country i told my friends a stray cat scratched me- my teacher believed it too!

I'm fed up of lying though, i want get rid of my SH issue for good, preferably before it goes public!!! So should I go to a counselor, or should i just keep it to myself?

[Dr.Bobby]

Originally Posted by chocolateluver

i want get rid of my SH issue for good

^This. Stay goal directed!

There are two ways of getting rid of anything: Either by yourself, or with the help of someone else. If you've tried the former and it doesn't work, then you go with the latter, and address the other complications (like your mum!) as they arise.

Besides, the complications are never as bad as the problem, when it comes to self harm. Work with the counselor on a way of addressing those complications so they are manageable.

[Childish Giggle]

Originally Posted by chocolateluver

I'm fed up of lying though, i want get rid of my SH issue for good, preferably before it goes public!!!

The question here is why are you hurting yourself? What is the reason for this behaviour?

[chocolateluver]

I don't really know, i guess it's when I'm really upset or angry and the physical pain distracts me from the emotional pain

[Childish Giggle]

Originally Posted by chocolateluver

I don't really know, i guess it's when I'm really upset or angry and the physical pain distracts me from the emotional pain

When are you upset or angry?

[chocolateluver]

When I have a huge argument with my mum, school, when people tell me i'm not good enough, when i feel alone in the world, when people constantly blame me for things out of my control, when things get out of hand and i fall over the brink, that is when i SH...

Kind of ironic, we had to do this careers thing at school and when i had no idea what i wanted to be and my teacher told me to look at my strengths, when i didn't know what my strengths were someone said i was good at being happy...

i feel like a fraud, for fooling everyone around me into thinking i was GOOD at being happy when I'm secretly SH! Urgh! My life is a mess