Triggering (SH): Wantin to Cut a Word...

[Lovehatelife23]

I want to Cut the Word SCREW UP in my Arm bc im such a Screw up to everyone....Im tired of Livin n Tired of this Life i Live...Idk wat to do....Im bout to EXPLODE!!!!! I want to Get Help...I want to tell my DAD that im thinkin of SUICIDE...i want to die...Im very Tired of livin...its Agravatin me when i cant Explain wats Wrong???? My Life is bout ti End very Sooon...Idk how to tell someone...without Makin the very mad at me...

[Kate*]

Leslie, I don't think anyone would be mad at you, if they did get angry I'm thinking it would be more out of fear that you would hurt yourself than anything else. I think telling your dad and getting help is a great idea and you don't need to tell him to get help since you're over 18 (if that's what's stopping you).

[Lovehatelife23]

yes im very into lookin to get me help...but if im not here to do things for them, it makes them Stressed out. Im Dyin Slowly...Im tired of Suffering, I want it too End...I kno that im over the age of 18 but my parents arnt home n i have to get my brother off the bus, Im stressed out, I lost Friends of something they Blamed on me that i didnt do, All i have in my mind is SUICIDE...i kno thats not the answer, but everyone would be alot better without me ruining their Lives...Im tired of Feelin this way n if i get worse im goin to do something n it will be Terrible...im tired of it, im tired of Life, Im tired of Everything...

[Kate*]

Leslie, depression (I'm assuming for the sake of my answer that you have it) lies to you and gives you every reason it can come up with for you to give up and end your life. The fact that you believe everyone would be better off without you is a lie of that depression. Everyone cares about you and they don't want to lose you. Help will help you get what you want, you want out of this without death and it's possible.

[Lovehatelife23]

ya im tryin to not go towards death, but it seems possible, ive tried before n almost lost my life dew to over dosin on tynole n i learned my lesson bout that bc of my liver, but i have other ways of doing it, i kno my parents loved me but my friends dont, ive lost friends, ive lost a bestfriend dew to Suicide bout 4 years ago, all i want is to be free, I kno i will go to Hell for takin my own Life but i always thought somewhere inside of me that God Would Forgive me for doin it even if it takes awhile for Forgivness, ive been depressed sence i was age 4, that was when i was adopted, nobody knows why i was like that but it caught on to me through my years, I would be ok sometimes n then click right into Depression, When i was in a mental hospital before when i was 15 my doctor told my dad that if i didnt change when i got to be older i would be put away for Life in a Mental Hospital or in Jail, Some people may think im lookin for ATTENTION but im not when there is really something wrong with me i can tell bc i start to act werid n turn people away from me, start hatin myself n cuttin n everything else, Ive tried Conslers that didnt seem to work, Ive tried talkin to friends that didnt work, Tried talkin to my parents that doesnt work either, Nobody seems to listen to me, it gets me very agravated. Im tired of Crying...

[Lovehatelife23]

im not worried bout dyin, im not worried bout death, Im not scared of takin my own life, Im not scared of hurtin myself, Im not scared of anything....If i was then i wouldnt try to kill myself in the first place....but when i do try to take my own life i try not to tell anyone bc i just want to sit there n suffer until i take my last breath...n say goodbye