Triggering: Never thought it would get this bad..

[I'm-moving-on]

I never thought things would get this bad. I have marks all over the tops of my legs now. It hurts so badly. I thought things would be okay since I have managed somehow to not cut myself for three days, and then I found a pair of scissors, and couldn't help myself. I feel like I'm getting addicted to it, and don't know what to do. I can't help it. I'm not strong enough. It's starting to take over.

[I'm-moving-on]

I cut myself again today. I don't even see why I try to stop. I'm not dead yet, and I just can't give it up.

[Koharuchan]

Ask yourself these questions: Why am I cutting myself? Do I deserve to feel this pain? What am I accomplishing by causing my body harm?

I understand that people cut to relieve stress or vent and whatnot, but I myself don't understand how it could possibly help you. Think about it this way: You're already suffering, or else you wouldn't be cutting. So, why suffer more by inflicting harm upon yourself? It doesn't help the pain go away, it only brings on more pain.

[I'm-moving-on]

It helps me to deal with guilt that I have had building up for ten years. It helps me to take my mind off of it.

[grae96]

Don't give up hope, it will get better. I also cut, and I have for almost a year now, so i can relate to so of the realeases you can get from it.. you should be proud that you made it 3 days! That's amazing! Also, have you told your parents? Talked to a counselor? Those were the first few steps before I could actually think I could stop and now I've been 9 days. If you need someone to talk to you can always pm me(;

[FillingWithHope]

3 days is a great accomplishment! Soon you will be able to go a week and maybe a month! Don't give up hope, you can do it, I believe in you. Stay Strong and Positive! Try to find other things to help you cope, for example blast music and have a dance party in your room or write. Do something that will keep you busy and distracted.

[Koharuchan]

Originally Posted by butterfly2014

It helps me to deal with guilt that I have had building up for ten years. It helps me to take my mind off of it.

What did you do that was so bad you feel you have to inflict bodily harm? Whatever you did in the past that made you feel guilty, it's in the past. As you said, 10 whole years in the past. I understand very well that the past hurts, believe me. I went through a horrible dark time for years, and I thought I'd never get out. But it's over now, so why make yourself hurt more? Cutting really isn't the answer.

[Ally_Georgiiie]

Hello butterfly,
I know its hard to struggle with self harm. I know you think you'll do it once and then be done with it, but it's like smoking really. I think that what you need to do is ask yourself what the reason is that you need the escape your mind and guilt. Then when you find out do everything you can to get that problem solved. If you have problems doing that, maybe you can go see a psychologist, or school counselor. Either way I also think that it would be responsible to tell a close friend who will first of all not tell other people, and secondly help you through it all. Maybe telling a growen up wouldn't hurt either. Just to be safe.
I hope I've been a help, you can allways pm if you need to.
Chin up, Ally

[I'm-moving-on]

Thanks everyone. My best friend knows about it so she tries to encourage me. My parents wouldn't care if they did know. I'm trying to stay strong though.