I scratch myself

[leise]

Ok so I do this thing where I use a pin to scratch my skin.I also read that is kinda a poser emo thing to do- but I don't act emo and I don't show it to other people anyway. I don't want people to know at all because they would be all concerned, call me weird but I hate the idea of people being concerned over me and giving me extra attention because theirs something wrong with me- I would rather people give me attention because they like the part of me that doesn't self harm- and if I show theme I'll never really know why their acting like they care about me, you know what I mean?
I tell myself if it ever did get to cutting I would tell someone though, it's not that I don't kinda wanna cut or think about it but I'm just really sensitive to pain and I can't go that deep, so scratching and sometimes using a pin to re open old wounds is good enough.Plus even on days when I don't hurt myself I just feel safer with a pin in my pocket- it makes me feel strong.

[Kate*]

Hey, I used to do this too. I never re-opened anything and I didn't really leave marks. Just because you aren't cutting doesn't mean that this isn't serious or that it could lead to you eventually doing things that cause more harm. I would suggest figuring out why you're doing it and finding another way to deal with whatever is triggering you.

[Bubbles37]

I know how this is. When I started self-harming, it was scratching, but it progressively got worse. I would suggest you get help/try to stop before it gets really bad.

[Childish Giggle]

Hey there,
Cutting is not the only way to harm yourself. Scratching is too and is as serious as cutting. And this is not a poser emo thing to do. Its way beyond that. And I totally get what you said about the attention thing. Its exactly how I feel.
I started self harming the same as you. And I used to think the same about it, that I am sensitive to pain and I can't cut myself. But I did do it eventually. As Katie suggested, try to figure out why you are doing it. What is your trigger? And don't treat this lightly. This is where self harm begins. If you are keeping emotions inside you, please do not do that. Because they will come out bursting one day and you might resort to harming yourself more.
If you need help to figure out things, then get it. Here is a thread about where to get help-
http://www.teenhelp.org/forums/f11-d...o-can-help-me/
And for the time being, try to distract your self when you feel like scratching. Here is a list of alternatives. Not every alternative will work for you. You might have to go through a number of alternatives to find one that works. It will be a trial and error process-
http://www.teenhelp.org/forums/f12-s...ves-self-harm/
Stay strong <3 If you need someone to talk, you can PM/VM me anytime