i'm not sure how to handle this,

[ohjoy]

over the past two years i have been pretty much isolated and now that i'm back around people i'm realizing that i don't think anymore. it's not that i don't want to, its just that i can't. i feel like my brain was turned off and now i can't find out how to turn it back on.
my memory used to be so good i could remember what i was wearing two years ago to the day. after being isolated and around people who just put me down every chance they got, i've lost that. i can barely remember anything.
i've become an exceptionally awkward person and my mind pretty much goes blank when people talk to me. i'm not sure how to handle this. i feel like the only one with this problem. i don't want to stay this way forever and i would do whatever it takes to get back to the way i used to be. to retain information and be able to apply it my life.
i feel like everyday that goes by when i'm like this is being wasted. i'm in my freshman year of college, i should be living it up. i have a close group of friends, but sometimes i make things awkward with them and i'm not as close as they are with each other. i don't reach out because honestly i'm not sure how. when i do think, my thoughts are jumbled. i just want to know how to handle this, and if i can ever get back to normal.
i let important things slip my mind, which is unlike me. i can't even come up with a simple conversation to have with my dad and it kills me. i love having close relationships with people but it feels like i'm incapable.
please, someone help. i was fine up until a few years ago. i know i can be smart and witty because i was at one point. i'm just not sure how to get back.

[Yours Truly]

Do you have pictures of your childhood oranything like that you could look at? Trigger some memories and think about good times youve had. Sometimes finding that motivation to help yourself is difficult, but its there. you just need to find it. (:

There is no such thing as 'normal'. But you can get back to a healthy state and feel better about things.

PeterPan once said, 'You can do anything if you just believe."

Id suggest going to a therapist that can help you sort through all these different thoughts you have. But feel free to message me if you need someone to vent to or have other questions. (: