My Father...A few addictions

[prettyface2341]

Recently, I have noticed that my dad has been buying excessive amounts of Nyquil, so I told my 30 year old sister, and she came over two days ago and we basically searched my dad's bathroom for nyquil. We found 2 empty bottles, a box for a triple pack which was empty, and an almost full bottle. Today I went in his bathroom and looked again. He had thrown away the empty bottles, and the full bottle was a little less than half full. He does not have a cold, and he has not had one for months.
Also, he seems to be addicted to scratch off lottery tickets. My sister and I found at least 5 drawers completely stuffed with losing lottery tickets and scratch off tickets. He also wins and cashes some in--but not enough to compensate for the costs. And furthermore, a lot of the losers he sends in for a second chance contest, and he even throws away some losing tickets.. so what I'm getting at is that.. there are a lot of tickets........ a lot. And I am beginning to understand why we never have any money...
Finally, I think he is addicted to porn. The first time I knew this, I was in third grade when I came home and went on the computer and a window was left open with a woman biting a dick while in a bath tub. I closed it, just genuinely grossed out as an 8 or 9 year old. I've walked in on him countless times, as he buckles his pants up or minimizes a screen or just turns off the monitor.. he must think I am really stupid to not know what he is doing. Naturally, I want to say something, but I can't because it would probably hurt my mom. My mom is hopelessly in love with the jerk.. and he hasn't even touched her in that way for probably 18 years (my conception).. and it saddens me to think that my mom has to live like that. I couldn't break her heart by letting her in on the fact that he is getting off to some little tiny 20 year old whores. Lastly, I have found history on the computer of child pornography-not images, but phrases searched into google... this scares me immensely because I was molested as a child--this I know. But I have suppressed many memories of it, and i don't know who the person was... I know one of them, but it may have been two people.. Anyways, it scares me to see him smile at little girls whenever we go anywhere and giggle.. It worries me, I feel like I need to jump on that little kid and get them away from him. Of course I could never say anything.. he is my father afterall, and as much as I hate him.. I somehow love him because of that stupid paternal shit.
Btw. he is a recovering alcoholic... so he does have an addictive behavior.. I need help. I don't know how to cope with this. I don't know what to do.

So help me? Please.

"I want to scream, until no sound comes out.. and you've learned your lesson."

[Paix et Amour]

Well, i think you need to tell someone. maybe not your mom, but somebody you trust. he obviously has problems that need to be worked out if possible