Triggering (Abuse): My experiences

[BrokenButterfly88]

I remember my 11th birthday in bits. I'm now 17. I remember the night in detail. I was cuddled up in bed when my brother came in and raped me. Me made me give him a bj and he spunked on my face. He then fucked me and told me it was our secret. He was 19.
This happened for the next two years. always began with a bj, coming on me, on my breasts when they developed and then being fucked. It got worse at 13. He raped me more and even abused my bottom. It continued most nights until i was 15.
Then he made me date his best friend. He liked little girls, made me dress in his little sisters junior school uniform and raped me repeatedly in it. He was very rough and made me scream sometimes. This only ended two months ago. im completely broken...

I am so sorry to hear about these situations!! I am glad that it ended, but it shouldn't have lasted that long. Have you thought about going to therapy to help you recover from the trauma? Everything you went through sounds horrific. I am terribly sorry you went through all of this. Have you told anybody in your family or someone you trust about it?? I hope you have because that's not okay what had been happening to you. I am terribly sorry and hope you get the help to recover that you need!! If you want to talk more you can send me a PM or reply!

[Arabesque- golfing girl.]

Hello and welcome to Teenhelp. Thank you so much for telling us about what you have been going through and I am so sorry that you had to go through this. Are you able to try talking about what has happened to you if you want to with someone in your family or a friend or a school counselor or teacher or therapist and just talk. They will be able to help you to feel better. Try finding something fun to do to help you get your mind off of this for a while, going for a while or baking something or playing a game or talking to someone on the phone or something else that you enjoy. You can also talk on this helpline if you want to, it is https://rainn.org/ They have a call and chat area to talk about this. I hope you will be okay soon.