Possible abuse?

[Strife]

Several things i am/have/do are supposedly common in those who have been abused or raped. I don't remember any physical or sexual abuse, but my home life was messed up. (alcoholic/drug addicted parents, physical abuse in the house, emotional and mental abuse/stifling) I also don;t remember much of my childhood. I was wondering if there's perhaps any signs I could look for that perhaps something in my past is being repressed.

[FallenStar]

If you have flashbacks, that could be a sign. But if theres no physical pain or no memories, theres not much i can say. Maybe you were just one of the lucky ones?

[Susurrous]

Well your childhood life sounds traumatic enough. Your childhood memory loss is an obvious symptom of this.

Do you have panic attacks, insomnia, emotional fluctuation or lack of it?

I think it is worth looking up regardless. You may in fact just be repressing memories, but you will never know whether you are or not until you get the proper treatment.

There are tons of treatments and information for post traumatic stress disorder (if that is what you have, of course) online. It is just a matter of finding a solution right for you. I am not an expert on the topic but if oyu want someone just to talk to I am here.

[Strife]

I don't have flashbacks, but i do have panic attacks and I believe i have insomnia (hasn't been officially diagnosed, but I almost always have trouble falling asleep, wake up during the night, and don't feel rested) what exactly do you mean by emotional fluctuation?

[Susurrous]

What I mean is feeling emotionally unstable. Maybe feeling strange emotions for no apparent reason?

It really sounds like you have post traumatic stress disorder. I am not a doctor but I would certainly get it checked out by one.