Female Advice Preferred: supposed help, making things worse

[Speeddemonstar]

as my previous post says, there was a friend of the family that kept raping me... well, as recommended, I told my mom about it. well, she felt she couldn't take care of it on her own without police involvement(I refuse police involvement in any way, for personal reasons), so she told my dad. well, dad took care of it, but mom still keeps bugging me about it, she keeps asking me questions about it, and sometimes just bringing up the conversation, even though I tell her to stop, she still keeps bringing up the conversation. it is now to the point where I feel like cutting myself again, even though I haven't felt like cutting in months.

[nobodyinparticular]

hey,
Congratulation on telling your parents thats really great! Try telling your mom that it's really upsetting you to have her bring it up all the time. She should understand that it's not the sort of topic she can just keep bringing up. Have you told her about your urges to cut? I hope you can sort it out with your mum. Good luck

[Dr.heather]

tell mom she needs to back off... espcialy if its making you feel urge to harm yourself.

But at same time keeping this experince in can be painful to you long term. Talking to someone about your experince might be a good idea. If its not mom maybe a friend or a even a therapist...

[Airling]

Ah, good for you for bringing an end to it. Your mom probably means well, she might be trying to give you an opportunity to 'talk in out and let it free'. I recomened talking to a therapist or counsellor though. It helps to talk to someone with no real involvement in it. I hope everything works out for you. Try tell your mom how upsetting it is that she keeps bringing it up, and ask her to stop it. That if you want to talk, you'll go to her instead?

[Kitty.]

Hey,

I'm glad that you told your parents about it. I'm sure that your mom means well, but that doesn't make what she is doing right. Sit down with your mom and tell her that it makes you feel like harming yourself. If she refuses to stop talking about it, tell her that you will go to a therapist and work everything out there instead. Keep us updated.

Take care,
Kitty.

[Speeddemonstar]

Thank you everyone, I talked to mom about it, and she appologized, of course, I don't want to talk to councelor/therapist, because I've had alot of bad experiences with them. but mom still bugs me, wanting me to talk to her about it, but it has become less frequent...
the urge got so bad to cut, that I looked for my cutting blade. However, I remembered that I'd had to throw away the blade I used for cutting, as it started getting rusty, so I don't have a blade specifically for cutting anymore, and therefore can't, as I don't care how bad the urge to cut gets, I'm not doing it with anything rusty...
but, mom did take me to the doctor for it, and I'm back on my depression meds again, which helps some, but not much... but some is better than none... at least the urge to cut isn't as bad... also I've started keeping a journal, and it has helped quite a bit.