How do you deal with it?

[sweet_angel1993]

So When I was 3 I was raped twice. The second time for 6 years by my dad. I know who did it both times and I never turned them in for it. I regret not turning them in every day. I've never really dealt with it. I've tried to but I don't really know how.

Everytime I've told someone I really liked they either say they can't handle it and never talk to me again or they ask for all the details. I just told a guy I really really like and instead of doing either of those things he asked if I'd let him help me deal with it. I'm just kinda shocked that he would be willing to do that. Then I asked him if before I told him he would ever guess that I was abused and he said yeah. I always thought I hid it so good that no one knew about it.

For awhile I blocked it out but then the nightmares started. Now I have to take pills just so I'll sleep. If I don't then I'll have the nightmares and be afraid to go back to sleep. I use to stay up all night for weeks because I was too afraid to sleep.

My mom doesn't believe me and my brother won't talk about my dad. If someone starts talking about him he gets really mad. My grandma has always been there for me. I've tried to talk to her about it but I just can't. I've tried counselling but it just doesn't work for me. I won't open up to them.

I don't like asking for help with anything. I have to do things on my own but this is just too much for me to do on my own. How do you deal with it?

[Ann2012]

Different things work for different people. You can try writing, making poems drawing or some form of craft. Then as usual, friends help a lot.

I'm pretty sure I was sexually abused as a child too and one thing that's helped is to turn it into a learning experience. Only people that have gone through it know what it's like and therefore, I believe, give the best advice. Just don't ever give up and keep looking to the future. It will get better, just give it time. It does help to talk about it because then it's not all pent up.

I'm also sorry that you've had to go through this.