Triggering (Abuse): I can't forget...

[ICan'tForget...]

Last night, I was a victim. A statistic at most. Last night a single person tore me down with their actions. Last night, I was almost raped. I was spending the night with a friend, I rarely go to a friends house. She had some people over, guys an girls. It was getting late so I decided to go to sleep. Even though everyone else was awake. To my surprise, I was awoken by the force of a guy on top of me removing my pajama bottoms. I was scared, as anyone might be... I began to cry and struggle before anything happen. But to my surprise, nobody heard me. Nobody came and nobody knew. I now sit here, as I'm telling you this, with cuts and bruises on my face, stomach, arms and legs. I am yet, only 16, and I don't know why this happened to me.. Everytime I move, I feel the pain he has given me. I can't get the worry out of my head. And the worst part is, is that after he stopped, he had the nerve to tell me it was ok and to not be mad. How am I supposed to forget?! Tell me... How am I supposed to look my boyfriend in the eyes and tell him that a stranger has ruined me from the inside out... How?... I'm scared and I don't know what to do..

[Agoraphobia♥]

Hey there, I'm sorry you had to go through something like this, things like this, are not just something you can just "get over" it takes time and professional help. It really does, and it may be hard to ask for professional help but it's something that can make such a big difference. You need to speak out though and get this taken care of. Do you know who exactly it was? Even if not, you should go to the police, as well as try to get help from a professional like a therapist or counselor. It won't be easy, but you can find a way to move past this. If you ever want to talk, my PM is always open.

[Gymnophoria]

Hey Brittany.
First of all.
No one should ever have to go through anything like that and I'm so sorry you did. You need to understand that this is not your fault. At all.
And although it's hard, you really need to speak to someone about it. It took a lot of courage to post what happened on here and I'm so proud of you for that. If you find it difficult to talk to someone maybe you could just print this page off and show them what you typed or write it down? Any way that you can tell someone about what happened is good. At least then the boy can be punished for what he did to you before he does it to someone else. It's not okay to have sex with someone without their permission, no matter what the circumstances are.