Triggering: I just don't know why

[captivelark]

Earlier this year I was released from a psychiatric residential centre. For a long time before I was there, I'd been asking my parents for piano lessons. They arranged them for me.

I'm being abused by my piano teacher.

At first he was nice. And then everything seemed to get a lot more physical and terrifying. It started pretty small, more physical contact than necessary, hands down my shirt. It got to the point where he used to make me touch him and then use my mouth and then eventually it lead to rape. I used to have really graphic nightmares about being raped and it's exactly like living in one.

He told me that there's no point telling anyone as I have a track-record of hallucinations and lying and nobody would believe me anyway, I've met some of his other students. They always talk about what a sweet person he is, what a great teacher and how he'd never hurt anybody. They're nearly all beautiful or talented or clever. I'm none of those things and I just don't understand why it was me.

[FlyingTrue]

I suggest that you get a tape recorder and place it hidden near the piano when he is around to record what is going on. At the first opportunity, tell your parents and report it to the police. Law enforcement would be able to run a "rape kit" which would allow for the retrieval of evidence from what he has done, they can also setup a sting operation to catch him in the act. Do not let what he is doing demoralize you. He is a real predator, he is in the wrong, and he will be found out and defeated. Please try to stay strong.

[Magical Forest.]

Hey,
It's still worth telling someone, as people could understand and try to do something about it. I was raped when I was in a psych hospital and thought no one would believe me, but they did.
Maybe try to write it down in a letter, explain as much as you can, go into detail if possible. The more you express, the less 'crazy' you would seem.
The next time he does something to you, make sure you go straight to the police. You should have enough evidence on you for them to know whats gone on.
I hope things go okay xx

[Ambiance]

He's a sick asshole. unfortunately, people like that exist, but they are not in the right. He is not in the right. We all have lots of great attributes; he didn't pick you because you're not as good as them (you are), he picked you because he didn't think you would tell anyone. He's just using intimidation because he thinks it will keep you from reporting him; don't let it work! Tell your parents, tell someone at your school, tell any adult you can find in an authorative position; someone will listen, and it will end after that. and chances are that he's done this with other students, as well; one person usually is not enough for these people. if you speak up, others might as well. if they don't, this won't hurt the validity of what you say. Speak out, don't let this run your life <3

[Ambiance]

And, just so you know, people usually take someone who claims to have been raped very seriously, as it's a very serious matter.